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Before I begin this entry….so this is the second time this week I’ve really slept in, for whatever reason; on Thanksgiving, after feeding the guinea pigs, I slept in til 2: 45 PM, and today it was til 1:45 PM; I must really need it, for some reason; anyway…..

Would you believe this entry is something that I started working on June of this year, and no matter how much I worked on it, it just wasn’t connecting properly in a way that came off to me beyond feeling angry & discouraged with people I was trying to help, and only recently thanks to a podcast short I was watching on Youtube did it all finally come together? I’m gonna start out by sharing the examples of what happened, and then explain how it all fits together (as I do)…

We’re actually gonna start off with what was said in the podcast short, to help set the stage a lot better than I believe I initially tried to, those months ago:

There’s this podcast on Youtube called JustPearlyThings, and the host is a semi-attractive redhead who talks about dating, the “red-pill” aspect, the manosphere, marriage rates, all that fun stuff. Her work has even been seen by comedian Dave Chappelle, believe it or not! Before you ask me “so Russell, what’s she doing that you aren’t, that you haven’t gotten your blog off the ground, yet?” Well, aside from the fact that my path with this is not the same as hers with the podcast (I don’t know what her goals are with her podcast, but mine are not fame & fortune), she–as I’ve heard–is also dating a millionaire, and she has ten people working for her. This blog is a one-man show, people, that’s why. Plus, the red-pill aspect has gone somewhat mainstream, whereas the territory I’ve still unfortunately had to hold back….has not yet, even though I’m starting to drop breadcrumb trails for you here and there about it, including via vlogs.

Anyway, she recently had on a fellow who I believe is from Zimbabwe, and I kept asking who the guy is, but couldn’t get a response from anyone. The short on Youtube was “All Women Are the Same”, and while I kinda understand how it connects to the bigger picture the guy was explaining, it’s not really important here, but I will say during the entire short Pearl had a very uncomfortable look on her face, and the response in the comments seemed to mirror that; the fellow’s words were “most people are useless“, and he continued on to clarify it by stating “They have to be told when to wake up, what time to be at work, what to do when they’re at work”, essentially suggesting people need to have their hands held thru the matrix system; a type of co-dependency if you will. Well, I’d like to put an asterisk on that statement, especially since both Pearl was taken aback by that statement, as were so many easily offended folks in the comments: *by choice

From here, let’s dive into what I’d first written way back in June, before rounding it all up, shall we?

Over those past several months, I’ve been discovering that more and more people are either exiting my life, or getting “sidelined” as it were, much as I discussed in this entry here, about growth. Essentially, as I follow my own path to growth, many are indirectly admitting to me they either can’t live up, or don’t think they can, and in the process I’m hearing less and less from them, or our conversations are simply less engaging in a variety of ways; I remember there was once this meme on Facebook that said “stop expecting you from other people”, which I think I’m better coming to understand not only means the standards which you implement, but expecting them to push forward with similar standards in their own lives, as well.

A few examples:

A buddy I tried helping from the Autistic community on Facebook– who was freaking out about failing miserably in the world of dating while openly admitting to literally doing every single thing every “Red Pill” channel warns not to do– admitting that when he’s in relationships, he’s only in it for the quick dopamine hit of the “honeymoon” phase and gets bored fast, then is in excruciating emotional pain when the relationship takes its natural course from there. He also immediately makes the effort to let the gal know he sees himself as disabled, puts her up on a pedestal, and all but states he has nothing to offer, because he hates himself. When I last spoke to him, I told him “think about if you really, genuinely want to end this cycle of yours, or if you just came to me tonight because you’re in emotional pain, and you needed a shoulder to cry on”. Incidentally enough, I haven’t heard back from him yet, so something tells me it’s the latter.

Another buddy of mine–who I have met in person, and have known considerably longer and better–lives in the southern part of the state, and while he does have some physical disabilities, I have personally seen him use his Autistic abilities to amazing results, and get excited whenever he shares that with me. However, he usually tries to downplay any potential growth in his life, and instead wants to focus on telling me about some new Transformers or Power Rangers action figures…..incidentally in some cases he’ll literally tell me the same thing about an instance with one particular character or version of a toy multiple times; literally every conversation with him winds up being padded with hearing about something from pop culture; I take it as he’s hiding behind it…kinda like a “shield“. Incidentally, I have challenged him on this, among some other things, and said to him about himself–as he admitted he’s afraid if he digs deep, he’ll find a guy he doesn’t like–“you said you trust God, correct? Do you not trust his work?”; that literally left him speechless. But again, you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make ’em drink.

In the final example I want to use, before I get to my main point with this (consider it all build-up), I have a good buddy that I’ve hung out with in person multiple times, even went on trips with, etc…..and he’s an amazingly talented artist, but not only does he appear to be a bit lazy, but much like my buddy in the first example, utterly consumed with external validation. He can be on a roll with some of his art, and if one guy he doesn’t know says they don’t like it, his laziness kicks in, and he winds up creating a commotion over it, and using it as an excuse to simply shelve all his work, move on to something else, and then not do anything with that, either. I even made one final attempt to help him by connecting him with the guy in the second example, since it appeared to be “the only audience he ever thought he’d have” (his own words); and….that chat went absolutely nowhere. They said hi to each other, and my buddy never asked the guy for his input, or anything. Instead, he just continues to post things on Facebook, stating how he’s “totally gonna do things”, and never does any of them.

Now that I got those examples out of the way, you may wonder where exactly I’m going with this……

Quite some time ago, during my Socializing mini-series, I did an entry about picking up on body language…..explaining how we on the spectrum can indeed pick up on body language, but we don’t do it by studying how people arch their face, or their smiles, or some stupid surface-level horseshit like that; basically, folks on the Spectrum are capable of picking up on body language thru repeated patterns….kicker is we have to experience enough scenarios of an instance happening to know where it’s going, i.e. “forgot what they say they will do, and the expression on their face, what always comes after these factors”. Pick up on that enough times, and you can play your chess moves accordingly. Well, I bring this up due to something empaths–from what I hear via channels on Youtube–go thru all the time, but I know that folks on the Spectrum are very easy targets for as well….and I know this from all the testimony I hear from the community constantly, and I’m not gonna lie….plenty of folks on the Spectrum wind up doing it too, so unfortunately it’s not simply something we experience from folks off the spectrum “and that’s the story, Jerry”….no, many have fallen in with their non-Autistic counterparts on this–including a few I’ve tried to offer council to–and I wanted to bring it up today, for a few reasons, really….

Folks on the Spectrum are commonly known to cross paths with/get connected with toxic people/those who may not necessarily deserve as much time and attention as we’re willing to offer them for a variety of reasons; I am no stranger to this, as most of you are already more than aware of, and honestly I’ve come to a point where I can discern enough now, and realize that a lot of these people who we think want help….really don’t, they just want to play victim, while getting that quick dopamine hit of attention, before they get bored, and just keep continuing the vicious cycle that they’re in. Now I know…. I know, I know, I know…..half of you are gonna roll your eyes at me, and go “sigh, Russell….we know this already; we know you’re wasting your time with people who don’t deserve it, who aren’t gonna do anything with their lives; why do you bother, in the first place? They just want to feel sorry for theirselves, they’re lazy, they’re not motivated….it’s a waste of time”. You want to know why I was willing to put in the effort? Ya really want to know? Cause I’m more than happy to tell you…..

Honest to God, most of these people I saw a lot of my own struggles in. They seemed like folks who the “established” path didn’t work for, they needed an alternate route to find their own happiness, and they didn’t seem to be surrounded by anyone who really had any answers for them regarding it. I totally 100% got that, and being so results-oriented, I wanted to see if I could be that guiding light for them….offer them a level of clarity that no one else seemed to understand; in the “MGTOW/Red-Pill community”, when it comes to dating, they call that “Captain Save-a-Hoe” incidentally enough

Well dear reader….as I work on my own ascension, I’ve come to discover many important aspects in regard to this territory; the main one being….just as I stated in that entry, linked above, about the folks “off the beaten path”, the truth is…..all these people I tried to help didn’t really want to find themselves, at least not thru me. They want the established path, or more specifically, they enjoy playing the “victim” card…..to get a dopamine hit from attention from empaths. Most of these people don’t have any genuine desire to better themselves in any way…..or at least not in the way we’re attempting to offer it to them, and/or are not truly ready for their own ascension; they get a few likes on Facebook, and they’re content for a while….in many cases they’re even looking for an excuse to drop all the effort you think they’re making, because they got the dopamine hit they needed, and just want to go back to screwing around, while doing as little as possible. Don’t by the way think for even a minute that those who willingly follow the accepted path will call them out on this, other than to say they’re lazy, and just need to stick to what’s “accepted”, either….which is part of why nothing ever seems to gets fixed; essentially, the seemingly-successful are trying to “fix the wrong problem”, if that makes sense……i.e. have the “dregs” confirm for them that they’re genuinely successful, as opposed to questioning their own existences for true fulfillment.

So, lemme get to what the guy said on the podcast:

Essentially, whether or not they’re on disability, whining to get a “there there” from people, or driving in rush hour traffic for 30-40 years to a job they hate to keep their cushiony position in the “rat race”, I do agree with the guy that most people are essentially useless, but only because they choose to be. No matter how much you may want to help people better theirselves in life, they need to want to do so, and that requires a level of self-reflection and personal responsibility that utterly terrifies the majority; trying to help them with self-betterment….is…..as Ursula’s husband Evan once described it “like trying to rearrange the chairs on the deck of the Titanic”. Yes, most people are “living the dream”……of their own choosing, no matter how much they claim they hate it. They’ve agreed to the choices they “hate” because it’s an easier–and more socially acceptable– path than what they don’t.

I used to make every attempt to be a healing empath to help people because I saw so much potential in other people, and wanted to see their true capabilities thrive, and from my own perspective of having borderline-zero nurturing, they probably weren’t getting it as they needed either. Well you know what, folks? Here’s the kicker: despite continuing to get that next-to-nothing in terms of nurturing, for a one-man show, doing the work of three people on a daily basis, I am thriving on my own terms. I don’t need a mansion, a fast car, a harem of hot babes, a $10K Armani suit, the list goes on; that’s all “matrix” success, anyway. I’m thriving out of my own personal choice to do so; proper support network or not, I’m finding a way to make it work, because I’m results-oriented, and always have been; most people aren’t, on or off the Spectrum.

You know what else this revelation in my life has also led to? Dealing with a lot less people, and a lot less drama. Funny story in fact: so on Midterm Election night a few weeks back, I decided to open up Twitter and Facebook–as the results came in–just to observe the reactions of the folks on my timelines; not say anything, just observe. I quickly had to shut out Facebook, because I felt my brain melting from the echo-chamber of nothingness it had devolved into since I stopped posting, from the threats of being locked out, and not otherwise seeing the platform worth my time.

Before I close this out, I want to share with you some updates about the examples of people I made above:

the Autistic fella who was hopelessly desperate for a girlfriend….actually started chewing me out, and getting an attitude over my trying to help him, so in no uncertain terms, I wished him the best of luck, and moved on; I think he dropped his Facebook account, and wishes to continue his vicious cycle of self-loathing.

My buddy down in southern Ohio started asking me some more in-depth reflective questions, implying that he wanted to do some self-help work, and then literally about a day or two later, claimed he felt all better (yeah….ok) ….and just went back to sharing with me photos of the latest new toy he bought.

My buddy up here claims he’s stopped doing his artwork to impress other people, and now just does it for his own pleasure, but I can clearly tell he still flirts with the idea of following the latest trends, although claiming he’s trying to express his individuality, because it’s “considered socially acceptable now”; feel free to read that several times over, without your brain exploding.

I’m now at a point where I start holding a lot more people at arm’s length, and most of my social interactions are either transactional or as deep as saying “hi” to people, and the less attached I get to almost anyone–whether they have matrix success or not–the more peaceful my own life has been.

You’re right….you do need more people like me in this world….but you’re not ready for them, honestly; not yet. You wouldn’t know what to do with them if you had ’em. Be glad folks like I am are out there, and ready to do what’s necessary, when the time comes for it.

You know what, though? Being the “get-it-done yesterday” type that I am–and following my heart to forge ahead, instead of leaving myself wondering “what could have been” has also been very helpful throughout my life, but in many cases in ways a lot of people would’ve stated they regret, and I’m gonna dive into all of that next time…..