The Journey that so many of us are on isn’t an easy one. It’s also one that we didn’t pick up overnight. I’ve said before that my weight gain has happened over the course of the past ten years starting when I was pregnant with the twins.

It was a gradual weight gain over all those years. 10 pounds this year. 20 this year. Until I got to the point I was at.

What’s my problem?

I want to be at the end of my journey. While the progress is finally starting to show, I want to be at the end. I didn’t want to start at the beginning. I wanted to start at the end. I wanted to start with the shrunken tummy. The slimmer thighs. The non jiggly arms.

But I didn’t. I started with what I had, something I wanted to get rid of. I will admit it has become a bit of an obsession. When I started I was only in the gym for MAYBE an hour. I hated it. I struggled. As the weeks went by that hour went up to an hour and then minutes. Then an hour and a half. I hit two hours after just a few weeks after that. Now? Well…now I’m there for about three hours a day. Typically 5 days a week. Sometimes only 4. Mostly it’s 5 days.

I’ve also been obsessing over the food I eat, except for cheat days. I track those calories like it’s my job. Of course, it is. Who else will if I don’t?

I will admit my self control when it comes to sweets or french fries…*sigh*…is lacking. I LOVE my sweets.

I have found something that helps it though. Something that isn’t terribly on the waist line and is CHOCOLATE! It’s GNC’s Swiss chocolate lean shake.

There’s 25G of protein, 170 calories, and only 2g of sugar. Not bad. Not bad at all. And what’s better, the cafeteria where I work sells them. They make a nice meal supplement when I forget my lunch or I need something quick to hold me over until dinner.

I will say they aren’t that filling for something that is supposed to be a meal replacement. I always expect my appetite to be curbed when I drink these things. It is…for about 20 minutes. Then I’m left dreaming about snacking. Like right now. That vending machine is looking awful tempting. Mmmmm Doritos. Or those powdered donuts I saw in there…

But I digress.

So my weight loss journey, I wish I could start at the end. I can’t though. I had to start at the beginning.

Oh, BTW, I plan on Running my first 5K on July 7! That’s just a month and a half away! I’m up to running 1.85 miles so far on the treadmill. I’m trying to get up to the 3.1 then heading to the streets. I’ve heard running on pavement is a lot harder then the treadmill.

Let’s find out!