I have been hoping and thinking since my last miscarriage. Things has not been getting any better but still coping well. I know my desprate cannot solve the issue, but I just hate seeing every month seeing my period "visit" me.



I don't care if people what they going to think of me, cos' I find that I don't have to answer to them. Especially those OLD WOMEN... They can easily bear gudges and haterous. I am not interested. I more concern about my life, my family and my future.



This year theme is to Love one another. I know I have reacting selfishly, but I really not ready to share love with those self-centre fellows. Life still have to go on... Days will not stand still... My Wishes yet fulfilled. Lord I am sorry that I may be very selfish, I really tired of pleasing humans. I am also human why aren't people pleasing me??? They can throw their "mood" at me? I can't never be emtional to anyone.. I cannot vent my anger, I cannot shout out loud! I can't show my unhappiness. I have been mute whenever I face my problem. When they are sick I must show attention to them, Whenever they are not in the mood, I must be a joker to cheer them up. When they are sad, I must consol them! WTF!!!! Why things have to been "level" differently??????