When I decided to start a blog, I really did not understand the amount of work that had to be put into it, and when I started slacking, I panicked.

The longer I took between posts, the more of a failure I thought I was. I said to myself “you are not even great at writing!”, “That piece is not good enough!” “Those photos aren’t as good as the last one!” “Just trash this idea”

And with this overwhelming sense of failure and self-doubt, I did what every (well not every) person would do: I caved. I stopped it all. Writing, baking, cooking, all.

I made excuses all the time. It was either a lack of the proper tools, or the pieces were not right, or I did not have enough money to complete a project. I always made excuses instead of facing my fears and telling the voice inside my head that I could do it.

I believed.

I stopped.

I finally failed.

Was I happy?

No.

I had so many ideas. My brain was constantly thinking up funny and amazing pieces, but my fingers refused to type. How many times did I open Word and close it so quickly my laptop probably thought I was psycho?

I don’t want to dwell on the negatives, but constant reminders from my friends about how much they loved my writing, and how it was funnier because they read it in my voice, always made me smile in their presence and hours after they’d gone.

To all of you that left anonymous messages telling me how much you loved my blog and my writing, thank you.

To all of you that reminded me of all the amazing things that I did and how you wanted to see that on the blog, thank you.

For the emails you sent to me talking about my potential, thank you.

You all helped me get out of this dark place of self-doubt and disbelief. Maybe I’m still lurking at the entrance, but I won’t let that control me, neither should you.

Thank you.

I will take things easy and slow, but I will never stop venturing out there, I will never stop baking, I will never stop cooking (because man must sha eat, riiight?)

I have missed being adventurous just for you. I have missed chuckling at my own jokes and making you laugh too. I am back, and I am not going anywhere.

With all of my Heart, I Apologise.

So, here’s to a brand new start