VTU Confessions #01

By: Tejas Jagannatha.

Howdies to all.
If you are searching for a real motivation to make a move, this is the right place you are at.
Ok, Chuck about all the things that have happened to you and sit and spend 5min reading this,
My name is Tejas and studying 4th sem ECE, well I was also a person who came to engineering with a passion for it.
Sit back and laugh if you got the humour. I know it wasn’t worth it. But yes will see it further.
There is a common saying

If you don’t know what to do after 2nd puc.. join engineering.It shows u the way ur looking for.

A 100% right quote.
Well, I was a cool student in my 1st year (CBCS scheme) having troubles in attendance. Used to get the notes, sit and study all by myself and used to do smart works. Like used to study just four modules and write the exam. I was getting the marks I had wished for. Yes, the 1st year was a boom with FCD!!!

Coming to 2nd year.
I mean 3rd sem,
This is the sem which made me realise how strong I’m.
The first three months went on with bunk. I had confidence that I could study all on my own.
At last, the moment when I didn’t get notes, when I didn’t understand subjects it was the time I realised I need to start all over again which was impossible at that moment.
I had many other personal struggles that I had to face in my life; yep I knew something was wrong with me. I knew I would give up entirely in my life. I tried all night long for the mistakes I did in my life for the fun I had. I was confident that I would not succeed hundred percent. I remember I used to cry in the shower for more than an hour. Tried to commit suicide for more than five times. Yes, I proudly say that!!!
This is when life shows the ones who will reveal the real faces of friends you have. My friends stopped me from committing suicide I thank them a lot.
Yes, I had female friends I thank you so much because you were the one who sat next to me and taught me daily.
Yes, the other one she used to call me late night and remind me that I am capable of achieving things. I finally knew I was literally in a clinic depression. I fell to sleep all day eat nothing to stay in a dark room all day and do nothing.
Yes of course exams were starting in just three days, and I hadn’t touched the book. I regretted why I was on this planet I am a faggot not a good Son to my parents. I used to cry seeing my parents Eyes that they were having good hopes for my future.
Haha, I remember the time when I had written a letter I’m sorry couldn’t be a good son and thought of running to ISKCON.
Lolz!! Engineering does that to you!!
Yep, when my friends were revising, I was surfing the web on how to jump branches or get in for BCA or hotel management. Yes, exams were within two days. I know it’s funny. I knew about flunking hundred percent, but I had no choice I have to study I started to study before two days of the exam commences. I had made up my mind that I would flunk in all the six subjects and jump to mechanical branch and start my engineering all again.
Yes, I wrote all my exams in depression.
Yeah, I need to tell you this analogue electronics. I was 2 hours before in the college as I knew I didn’t have anything to do. Had studied just three modules. I had called my friend told him I’m going home I don’t feel like writing the exam (XD!!). I really want to say his name; he is Rohit. He came to my house spent his all holidays teaching me subjects. I really heartfully thank him here. Give me the strength to write the AE exam somehow. And Network Analysis lol I saw the question paper boom I slept off….
XD!!!…

I got up after 30 minutes, and I realised I was in the exam hall and had no other choice than writing the exam paper. I was literally begging for help to get out from all these hectic examinations and have a peaceful day.
The worst part of depression is that when I used to sleep, I used to Shiver, sweat, faint. My exams are over big thanks to that I remember my dad used to put me on the lap and give me a mental strength to study plus I knew the troubles I was facing but not the depression.
It was my digital Lab externals I was as usual. I had connected all the circuits, but I was not getting the output I tried and tried hard and took around 2 and half an hour to complete the experiment, but I didn’t get the output, and I knew I would pass the lab as I had done the other experiment. I connected the circuit again, and I did it around five times, but it was useless. I finally gave up, and I was removing the circuits, but my mind told me that I needed to do it again just give it one more chance for it…
I started over again boom! I got the output at the last moment. I was happy, and I came out of the lab…. What I really want to tell you is that never give up in your life even though you know you are going to fail, miracles will happen at the last moment of time trust me with this just never give up.

Admin of this blog is one of my motivators too; I remember the time when I had called him and told him the struggles that I was facing, (one of his article which motivated me so much that I wanted to speak my heart out with him). This guy I tell you, he just laughed, I got a bit angry… Yeah, now I know why he laughed ha ha hahaha. Talking about help, and yes there were many Angels in my life who helped me. I thank him so much. My exams were over, and I was happy that I could sleep peacefully and recover.
Results were out recently and guess what???

I passed the semester with the first class result!
A holy moly 61%!

This was the time I got to know what was the actual meaning of hard work and the fruitful results… Yes, you require people in your life. No matter how successful you are one or the other time you are going to fall. But remember to get back up dress up, fire it up!!!
Let me be straight. When a person like me, a mentally unstable person could do it.. why the hell can’t you people having a clear mind and focus can’t??
YOU CAN AND YOU WILL
The only thing that can stop you is YOU!!
When radel Gandhi(XD) stands against Nodi to win elections even though he knows very well that he would lose!!!
Why can’t you people succeed???
Never compare yourself with others because the moments that you are facing couldn’t be encountered by others. You are who you are in life finally the battle is only between YOU vs. YOU!! If you ever feel of giving it up, I remember how far you came and didn’t make it a waste….
I thank my buddy shrav for giving me a chance to put this on his blog.
All the best to all the students for the coming semester exams. Trust me to go for it; you can do wonders.. when a person who was struggling with getting out of depression constantly thinking about committing suicide, Changing of branches, courses TO scoring decent marks.
If you are facing hard times, I remember that is just temporary and the things that you learn from those hard times are the ones who will build your successful career ahead… In the end, you can finally say you are mentally prepared for the father challenges.
Good luck all!!!
Happy to help.
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