Ever wonder if you are living your worth? If you are fulfilling your purpose here? If you had to leave tomorrow, would you have any regrets or unfulfilled wishes? 

I have experienced the loss of two wonderful people this week. One, who was the only grandfather-figure I ever had, an extraordinary man, a pivotal part of my childhood. He loved me, pampered me, listened to my tantrums, spoilt me with goodies and toys and was always proud of everything I achieved. The other, a woman I knew only for the last 3 years, but scarcely spoke to. She was strong, independent, always showered me with Love and smiles the few times I met her, I deeply regret not having more time to get to know her better. 

I dont know what comes after Death. Do you just become a particle of matter in a vast expanse of space or do you just fade into the light of nothingness? I like to believe in reincarnation. That every soul has to play their part in another role after one play is done. You are given the chance to forget all your past mistakes, regrets and start from scratch as a new being. But what I don't think is fair about death is what you leave behind...a sea of weeping minds and broken hearts. For every soul that is freed from the bondages of life, a hundred others are pulled into a storm of sorrow and grief. And you cannot avoid that, after all attachment and love are human nature.

And its circumstances like these that really weigh out your priorities. Sometimes I ask myself if I made the right choice leaving the people I love the most to fulfill a personal ambition. At times my answer to the self is a yes, I have goals in life that I want to achieve, do the things that I enjoy, make a difference in the lives of people and in my own life. But at other times, I doubt this answer. In the war of ambition vs emotion, is the former really greater? Or why does that war have to occur in the first place? Why cant we have the best of both worlds? It's a hard life. Or maybe it isn't that hard when you figure out the fragility of life and permanency of your possessions or relations. Until then, a chapter that has started has to be completed. 

For the souls that have left us, may you prevail in peace and bliss wherever this eternal journey takes you. You have been guiding lights and will always be remembered for your warmth, zeal, affection and the positive impact you had on our lives. For the rest of us left behind, I guess we just have to play our role to the best of our ability...awaiting our Broadway breakthrough.