Yes, you aren’t reading my blog.

Coming from the world of Psychology I have no clue about what is Blogging, coding, online traffic and other jargon which the millennials these days know at the tip of their finger. Wrapping my head around the idea that blogging can be the fresh air or something help me discover myself and connect with people at large.

But Guess what that’s not happening and the day has come where I have realized that noone is reading my blog.

It isn’t new to me, cause I have had series of projects failing back to back and I can’t wait to add this one too to my list. Yes , I know this will be the time when you will roll your eyes and tell me what man!! why the hell is the girl so depressing and I can’t take it anymore and there you hit the close button.

But wait, I always blabber that VENT OUT and here I am venting out my soul again cause I can’t be telling this to my mom or any potential date.

So let’s put the crappy feelings all out. Online traffic or visitors or “FAN” is something which you are never supposed to discuss but guess what I am discussing it right away. I hell do care who is reading my blog and why.

Since the first blog post I have seen decreased and receding graph of my visitors leave apart my followers. You can call a “shameless attention seeking BITCH ” and  will agree without saying a word.

Blogs, more often than not, fail. I’ve read that most of them fail within the first three months. If true, three months is apparently the time it takes for discouragement to defeat the will and creative spark to keep going.

So Should I continue or Should I just Write and waste my time and daydream a bit more?

The answer is I don’t know?!!

I have been a lot of things but quitting just like that.. Naah Haven’t tried this yet. This can be a foolish attempt to reach out to people and ask where am I going wrong but I need to know where the hell am I wrong.

Before concluding that my BLOG SUCKS!! I would eventually build a goal plan and I would genuinely appreciate any help or any suggestion from someone cause being YOU is difficult these days and I am not going to give up because I am ME. Also the future me wants to take this time to sort out and know things along with you guys to better equip herself.

So when you start something new and you are all amped-up about this as you have already seen a vision for the idea and how far you expected it to go. But then you start to realize that this thing you started us not as great as you thought in the beginning. That messes you up, your mind is occupied with the thoughts like “Bitch! you over estimated yourself, you aren’t that interesting as you thought you were” or “Someone overvalued themselves and guess who’s that”. So I started this blog as something more than a hobby, to reach out to people who would understand and have been going through the similar experiences as me. But I guess thing don’t always pan out as we assume. So I would say it’s better to expect than to assume. Someone warned me once, do expect if you have to but only assume when you need to.

I know blogging isn’t that easy, for me it’s not. I write about myself, I write about my experiences, I write through my knowledge and I write from my heart. So you read on this space will be personal on major level. Like it or hate it, it will be true. Might hurt you, might make you smile. But it will be fucking real. I will take this blog to somewhere I visioned about. It will happen sooner or later but this blog is not going empty anytime soon. This blog is going to be my ritual, at a level it already is. Even now I feel uneasy when I don’t post something on it. I know how uneasy yesterday was for me as I didn’t post on my self assigned deadline and that’s death for me. I am going to be and trying to be more punctual about the blog than I am in my real life.

I have introspected and considered few feedback about my blog posts and I agree I BRAG a bit about myself. Well, this was hard to​ confess but I do confess that yes I need to put that piece down. Also I would lie to quote my biggest critic here and now my mentor here:

“Tanveer. Quit telling us how awesome you are and prove it to us. Instead, help your readers solve their problems, period. Don’t emotionally blackmail us to get attention and drive us nuts. You may think we’re stupid and naive to your tricks, but we see right through them and we don’t visit your blog or share your content with our friends because of these things.”

I replied by a loud grumpy voice of FUCK YOU (Cause my EQ is very low) but I think deep down he makes sense.

I shall now utilize and structure my posts with a section of writing a section which would not make you aware about the problem but help you come out of it.

But you need to give me another chance.

And, even more than just a habit, I am curious to see where do I go blogging with this writing skill of mine and how well can I connect to you guys. So far, blogging this long has forced me to think about ideas in a way where I must be able to nail them down in words and confront them dead-on and maybe help you with something which you want to address for quite some time. It’s made me experiment with writing. I’m not willing to give that up just because only a handful of people read each day or to be honest just 2 visitors each day (whoever it is it’s quite motivating, but you really need to help me just write an email telling me about what would you like to read)

Q.How long will you blog?

Answer: Till the time my drunk friends motivate me and there is at least one visitor apart from me reading my blog post

My email id is :[email protected];

I do expect people to write not because I am some narcissist bitch trying to convince and beg you but because I am certain that You and Me will connect and we will talk about things which you will need to discuss it with someone. What better than discussing it with someone who isn’t going to judge you and is not charging you a dime to listen and write for you.

Next Up: My next article is going to be on Dissatisfied body image issues and how to take it spot on.

*** Any information or help for the article is more than welcome will definitely include it in the next article.