It’s been two whole decades that this 42-year-old woman has spent with her 44-year-old Husband, and they have two little kids together.

Back when she first started seeing her husband, he ended up cheating on her emotionally on two different occasions.

They were able to move on and put that behind them, but then, recently, her husband confessed to a physical Affair with one of his closest female friends.

Apparently, it started out strictly emotional, and then things turned physical. Her husband cheated on her with his friend for around four or five years.

“He had taken steps to leave our marriage but buckled at the last minute as he could not bear to be only with the children for half the time,” she explained.

“I understand that a lot of people will rush to comment how terrible it is to only stay for the children but we have love for one another, he and I. We care for one another.”

She knows they are no longer in love with each other, but they still care. They still have love, just not a romantic love.

She also has read a lot of stories about married couples who lose their passion, yet are able to maintain a relationship for the sake of their children.

That’s where she’s at in her own marriage, and she’s at peace with that. She’s ok with keeping it together so their children benefit, even if it’s at the expense of herself and her happiness.

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“It is very hurtful to know that my husband loves another woman, but it would hurt me more to have my family torn apart and live in two separate homes,” she said.

“I want to have as much time with them as possible. My husband agrees. The issue is, my husband continues to reach out to the person he cheated with.”

They decided to try to fix their marriage back in December, and her husband promised to quit speaking to his Affair Partner.

However, he did not want to delete or block this woman on his phone. Since December, every couple of weeks, her husband slips up like clockwork.

It all started with her husband reaching out to his affair partner’s loved ones in an effort to still maintain some kind of bond with her.

Then it turned into her husband stalking his affair partner on every single social media platform. From there, her husband began sending occasional messages to his affair partner on social media.

Not that long ago, she noticed a message from her husband’s affair partner pop up on his phone while he was fast asleep.

The message simply said “goodnight,” but so much for her husband’s promise to cut this woman out of his life.

She has never once gone through her husband’s phone, but after witnessing this message with her own eyes, she felt she had to see what else was in there.

She found out that her husband admitted to his affair partner that he’s still in love with her, and they exchanged some steamy texts.

“He was still telling her he could never leave us (his family), even going as far as saying he has accepted that he will be mostly “unhappy in marriage,” but the few happy periods he gets are enough to sustain it, and he won’t let his kids down,” she added.

“We have been in marriage counseling for almost 6 months, and I guess reading his messages confirmed that nothing much from our sessions has improved. The goal of marriage counseling is to form a happy, healthy relationship that is fulfilling for us so that we can raise happy, healthy children.”

“But seeing what he has written confirms he isn’t fully happy. Are we both being delusional here, thinking the kids can be enough to sustain happiness for us all?”

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