This 32-year-old woman has been with her Boyfriend, who is 36, for eight years. But while they’ve always had a great connection, she feels like their relationship is in a terrible place lately.

First of all, her boyfriend has been struggling with money but refuses to admit his financial problems to her. And the pent-up frustrations push him to lash out at her and even curse at her.

Sometimes, the stress also leads her boyfriend to become depressed– making him unreliable and unmotivated.

“I’ve started to resent him for months now. It’s pretty obvious, and I’ve openly communicated it to him,” she said.

“However, he is watching our relationship deteriorate, and instead of putting effort into us, he continued to keep busy with his many hobbies and friends.”

And on numerous occasions, she apparently tried asking her boyfriend to go away on trips to rekindle their chemistry. But, according to her, he always shoots down the idea– despite the fact that she is willing to pay for the entire cost of the vacation.

In terms of intimacy, their relationship is really struggling, too. They went from being intimate at least five to six times each week to only being intimate between five and six times a year.

She claimed that the problem isn’t that her boyfriend doesn’t please her, either. In fact, she believes he is phenomenal when they’re intimate. Yet, given all of the other issues they’ve been having, she just isn’t in the mood to be intimate that much anymore.

However, she does travel on her own sometimes for work. And a few months ago, she wound up Cheating on her boyfriend with a guy she met while away.

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“I went on a date with him and had so much fun, something my relationship is lacking,” she revealed.

“He seemed to value me as a person, and after a few too many drinks, I couldn’t resist the temptation.”

She was also honest about how the intimacy with that guy was “exhilarating.” Plus, she even claimed to wish that she could experience it all over again.

Still, she felt really horrible after being unfaithful. So, by the time she returned home, she ultimately came clean about cheating on her boyfriend.

At that point, they both promised to work on the relationship. Plus, her boyfriend even claimed that he would make an effort to do things for her– not just himself.

After that, she recalled how he did start trying for a while, too. But then, after about a month, his efforts fell off, and he just went back to his old ways.

That’s why, after she traveled again for work more recently, she cheated on her boyfriend with another random guy that she met.

But this time, she does not plan to tell her boyfriend about it. Instead, she plans to take this secret to the grave and has no clue how to quit cheating.

“I don’t know how to stop at this point. I’m not happy in my relationship, and cheating every so often is filling that void,” she explained.

“To be honest, I’m not sure I want to stop.”

And apparently, this feeling is completely uncharacteristic of her. She was always faithful in their long-term relationship up until now. She also claims to love her boyfriend more than anything and really hopes they can get through this “rough patch” to repair their relationship.

“But until then, my desire to cheat keeps growing,” she vented.

So, she’s been left wondering if there is any way to salvage their relationship or if she should just pull the plug.

Is it healthy how she consistently feels the need to cheat to fill a void? Do you think there is any way to come back from this? Should she end her relationship now? What would you do?

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