Last year,
I had a lot of people to thank for making me feel alive
This year,
I have myself
I bid adieu to 2017,
Making sense of the rebellion inside me
Rebellion that has become second nature
So it has even stopped asking for my permission
Before flaring up illusions to pieces
Before setting fires to the imagined
Because it all came down to the three-dimensions
though I may have even seen a fourth
I woke up to a snowfall and my lips rose in a curve
I didn't realise I was smiling until my jaw hurt
I was a wide-eyed kid in the moment I saw the whites
And gave that effortless smile
I fear
I may not experience again the magic as it froze
I once slept by the riverside in a place with colorful walls
I fear
My feet and those waves might never get close
Not a moment went by, that I regretted
So I fear
If I will ever say the same of any coming year
But this year also taught me:
I fear only what I look Forward to
And so I look forward to all of those
But most of all,
I learnt this new thing
I know
I am going to practice a lot
I said no.
xoxo
