I don’t really drink. I don’t do drugs. I have, however, on several occasions, sent a text to friends that made them question my sobriety. I sent a longer list of these to my friends, and they told me that I should share it with people who just met me as an icebreaker. So when I started writing for Write Through the Night, I thought maybe I would give all of you reading some insight into who I am.
Here are six of the greatest hits, and my futile attempts to give them context.
- “Is there a Stop & Shop in Kalamazoo?”– Firstly, yes I know I could’ve googled this (which I did, three hours later, and yes, there is a Stop & Shop there.) Second, I had had a dream the night before where my friend offered to bring me grocery shopping (insert gay stereotype of not being able to drive) and I responded with “I will only go to the Stop & Shop in Kalamazoo, Michigan.” I live in Massachusetts so that would be an absurd amount of traveling, and I would never ask someone to make that trip. I don’t know what this means, and I would rather not analyze it.
- “Do dolphins fear death?” Dolphins are almost as smart, if not smarter, than humans, so I assume the idea of their mortality comes to their minds at least once in a while. I think this is an incredibly valid question and I won’t be taking criticism at this time.
- “What secrets do you think John Legend is sitting on?” He always has a silly little smirk and I just want to know what he’s hiding. I am a very curious (read: nosy) person and I must know the hot goss. Give it to me, Johnny Boy.
- “If there is a God, why can’t I hug bears?” I literally ask this multiple times a week, and it never fails to make me cry (I may or may not have cried just writing this, but you have no proof)
- “Do you think turtles know how much I love them and root for them in all foot races?” Yes this is a reference to the fable of the Tortoise and the Hare, and yes, I was laughing at my own joke for an uncomfortable amount of time.
And finally,
- ” Would you still love me if I were Miranda Cosgrove?” I know this sounds like I am implying there is something unloveable about her, but after asking my ex-girlfriend if she would still love me if I were a worm, a slug, a raccoon or a porcupine, I kind of ran out of ideas and I was thinking about iCarly at the time, take with that what you will.
I was stone cold sober when asking each of these questions, but in my defense, I am autistic and constantly sleep deprived. I think I am charming, and that’s what matters.
All of this to say, the answer to the question, “will this ever change?”; No. I know who I am as a person.