2022-10-08 17:47
I am the one I have been waiting for, There was no recognition before now. It's just language is so limited, there is no I... How else to describe this physical form?&nbs&hell…Read More
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Short and long stories, poetry, blog posts about love, life and Shamanism. My exploration of this inspiring journey called life!
2021-09-25 18:35
There was a moment the other day where I felt peace, warmth and happiness. I was alone and had taken the time to cook myself food, allowed myself to nestle in blankets and feel warm. I had c… Read More
2021-09-09 19:48
I think one of the reasons I keep this blog is just so I can remember as I get older. I am not sure if anyone even reads these words, but sometimes I go through my stories, poems and blog po… Read More
2021-08-31 22:23
Do you feel what is happening here?I feel itShow me your fireAnd I will show you mineThe night is dark, soft, invitingWords take overFrom what could either bea divinely inspired uniono… Read More
2020-12-31 22:33
Seeking safety I limited myself Believing the perils of my mind I burrowed deeper, dug underground Secured restraint, I was bound to find I was sure of pain, every step wrong So… Read More
2020-12-27 19:30
"Henry Ford Hospital," Frida Kahlo, 1932, oil on Sheet Metal, 12 ½ x 15 ½ in. Collection Museo Dolores Olmedo, Xochimilco, México. © 2014 Banco de México Die… Read More
2020-04-05 19:01
***There is some swearing in this post - please do not read this if you are easily offended. It is also LONG***This is not an exhaustive list but this is one woman's guide to friends and fam… Read More
2020-04-04 17:31
She doesn't tell you what it means,When she tells you her little one is no moreWhen you will say, 'I'm sorry.'And she will wonder what you are sorry for.She doesn't tell you what it meansWhe… Read More
2020-03-19 13:19
Image by Bessi from Pixabay The planet is rejoicing - the air and water are cleaner, animals are safer and calm has infiltrated the most chaotic spaces. Mother Earth is h… Read More
2020-03-17 15:01
I was hauling a brown splattered 17kg suitcase through the mud of Bushy Park just a day after I had passed the majority of my third baby and all that entails. We had just buried little Noodl… Read More
2019-11-24 21:41
After my cacao ceremony, where I was asked to find a teacher, I found a course that resonated. I had read Michael Harner's, 'Way of the Shaman' a while back and knew that in Shamanic circles… Read More
2019-07-23 20:59
I learnt long ago to always watch nature's season change. In the trees, I notice the light, colour, shed and fullness. I try to embody and follow her patterns, a slave to the equinoxes that… Read More
2019-07-21 19:14
I decided to journey with cacao alone to deepen my connection with her and continue the work.I opened space, set up my altar and then cooked, sang, rattled, danced smudged, and called in the… Read More
2019-07-10 06:28
I smell herAs I crumble and chop.The medicineMelting on my fingersEntering my bloodstream.I smell herAs I stir the water.The medicine,Dissolving and swelling,Playfully becoming.I feel herAs… Read More
2019-07-01 07:18
I sent out a call to family and friends and they answered. On the due date of our second baby, my birthday, I chose to bring love in its physical form to my house, our home. My sister arrive… Read More
2019-04-28 13:18
'So, what are you grateful for?' he asked, as we stretch out in bed after meditating, fresh from metta. 'Well... I am grateful for you, this bed, this house, the safety we exper… Read More
2018-11-19 13:30
***WARNING - long graphic post and a little bit of swearing***I no longer believe in blowing away eyelashes and making wishes.My whole life I used to get so excited when I saw the tiny hair… Read More
2018-08-15 06:44
Be willing to honourthe circle of our cyclesour naturesour planetour consciousness.Beautiful wild womanof natureUnderstand!The seasonsBirthLifeDeathSee the perfection in all things.Be willin… Read More
2018-07-05 13:37
***Warning - quite a graphic blog post***I have never been in this position before and to be honest, before I found myself here, I had never thought about all the women who have been through… Read More
2018-06-22 18:02
*****WARNING Long blog post***** I knew that I couldn't wait to see you but not like this. I was expecting contractions but not so soon. I was expecting to hold you in my arms not… Read More
2018-02-18 08:56
He asked me and I said yes.Yes, yes, YES!!!And so preparations have started in earnest.Until 11th May there may be less writing, less posting and more figuring out what dress I am going to w… Read More
2017-12-09 17:28
There was a boy who once taught me to be silent. No mater how much I would try and make him talk he would just smile and hold me. I would put my head on his shoulders and sometimes we would… Read More
2017-12-02 16:36
‘Hi,’ a young woman about my age looked at me, her green eyes flashing with an inner intensity I could only wish for. In an American accent she asked me, ‘Which seat is you… Read More
2017-11-25 17:00
As I entered the check-in area at the airport, I saw my accidental Ayahuasca doula and we greeted each other like long lost friends. ‘Are you going to Aniwa?’ ‘… Read More
2017-11-19 18:12
In the summer, fresh from her Cacao Shamanista training, my oldest friend agreed to hold a cacao ceremony on magical Wimbledon Common. There were 4 of us and I was blessed to have a deep con… Read More
2017-09-24 14:01
Autumn surprised me. Summer felt like a long joyful celebration of life in many ways and I revelled in the openness that summer encourages within me. Fresh from the wild, I still felt… Read More
2017-08-15 06:26
It's been so long since I have written a post physically, yet, in my head I had written plenty.Experiences and visions had continued to visit me but somehow there had been no space to sit an… Read More
2017-06-04 08:48
What I saw was love in motion.I watched him fight against the separation of body and spirit that would signify the end of his earthly visit as he recoiled from the touch of chimeric oblivion… Read More
2017-05-15 19:35
She stared at the blank day ahead and wondered what to do with herself. The curse of this western mentality… this need to do. She thought that she didn't want waste even a moment of t… Read More
2017-03-02 22:08
I walked into the studio, expecting the next session to be about Shamanic tools and how to use them but the Shaman walked up to me and said, 'Things have changed tonight, we are going to be… Read More
2017-02-22 22:08
I walked into the Shaman’s circle with a renewed interest in shedding what does not belong to me anymore, a wish to peel off that which stops me from stepping into my own power. As the… Read More
2017-02-16 22:49
There are oceans within me and sometimes a storm whips me into a frenzy. I'm pushed and pulled by the elements and my waves grow mighty, forceful, powerful and they encompass all who come ne… Read More
2016-11-19 08:54
As I left Jersey with memories of nephew hugs and familial harmony, I focused on an important step in my journey to becoming the independent self-sufficient woman I wanted to fall in love wi… Read More
2016-11-12 13:15
In the wake of the revolution that is happening in America, I feel ripples of it amongst my own. So much shock, pain, anger but most of all... fear. We huddled together at work and wondered… Read More
2016-10-27 13:23
Cacao calls me in my dreams.I sat in The Shaman's space for the last time this year and reflected on the journey I have undertaken. As the autumnal feminine grows, the nights become darker a… Read More
2016-10-23 12:20
**Warning - long post**I arrived at the retreat centre alive, alight and flying. Ibiza and Jersey had been overwhelming in the most positive ways but as soon as I returned on English soil I… Read More
2016-10-20 07:20
Normally when I write a blog post I just write about one thing that has happened. I will focus on the incident or feeling, drill it down to see the effect it has had and then look at how I w… Read More
2016-08-23 08:14
Being single is a bit like those choose your own adventure books. As September creeps in and the slightest chill in the evenings beckons, I know that my own season of adventure is upon… Read More
2016-08-21 21:37
Sitting amongst the travellers of duskThe huskbut not it’s juicedried from the scorching sunSitting amongst the travellers of duskThe muskof sweat and spicetheir skin soaked from the a… Read More
2016-08-14 15:45
I have lost my voice.Not metaphorically or symbolically. I seriously and truly heard my voice become this deep husky baritone on Monday before it faded to nothing on Tuesday.By Saturday, the… Read More
2016-07-30 08:29
A stranger at homebut I am not alonewhen I have my selffor company.Nothing is free in this cityexcept the smiles on the street.Spirituality is denied meThe monks focuson my femininity… Read More
2016-07-20 21:39
It had been two months since I sat with the Shaman. During that time I thought of Old Mother Cacao often, realising how she is now a part of me and I am a part of an ever increasing communit… Read More
2016-07-17 12:58
The Hyderabadi TimesLiving under Hyderabadi skiesSmoke rises, autos flyYellow and black take me farTo yogic traditions and the cinemaThe city ‘a jungle’ the new arrival sw… Read More
2016-06-23 23:32
The destination keeps changingbut my mind tries to stay the same.Wherever I am, whatever I stand for,is as fluid as the water that makes me.Makes me into what…? I don’t k… Read More
2016-06-21 21:21
There is a line drawn. A point made. A place where an event happened some time ago and no one around you can have another conversation about it. For me it was him. I lost him. And I have had… Read More
2016-06-05 10:15
She sat at the café and placed her notebook on the table in front of her in case any thoughts or ideas needed to be written. She waited to see if a story would come. Practising patie… Read More
2016-06-02 06:38
Bravery is a dying art.The art of treading a new path.One which many would shy away from.Can you see that time goes so fastwhen your bravery comes to pass?Yet the choices we all makear… Read More
2016-05-21 08:49
Leaving Ashley DownI sit in front of the televisionStaring into spaceThere’s a man talking about some decisionThat he really couldn’t faceUpstairs room is bare, bags are packed… Read More
2016-05-17 11:52
Recorded in a broom cupboard in India on a second take with an mp3 player - with Anandhi George. I am not musical but this came from nowhere.I walked up to my friend and said, 'I've written… Read More
2016-05-15 09:24
They walked into the forest together; the ground crunching and crumbling under their footsteps. Autumn had streaked through the park at night and trees were now alight with reds, orang… Read More
2016-05-12 21:21
Surface EdgeAre my brown eyes too dark?Do you know what they have to say?Why is it you think you knowWhen I choose to look your way?Always you think you’re rightAlways I think I&rsquo&helli…Read More
2016-05-12 20:58
"You'll live," he said.She stood in front of him like a broken doll. She turned and he followed her. He took her to the tram and waited with her until she got on. "Look after Bryan," s… Read More
2016-05-10 17:51
In the stillness, there was movement. In the still black sky, the world was to be blessed with the light of the new moon. The stillness of darkness, the movement of light. As the… Read More
2016-04-16 09:29
Fresh from the sweat lodge, I walked into the Shaman's circle of women. This Cacao ceremony marked a year of my working with the plant in a conscious manner, implementing the lessons she tea… Read More
2016-04-09 22:46
The Shaman had felt called to bring women together for smaller Cacao ceremonies and I felt the call to be a part of it - the session was based on embracing my fertility and helping me… Read More
2016-04-09 19:04
Love UnrequitedMy heart has been stirred Though nobody noticesThe spoon dies with disuseand memories remainthe pulse does not stillThere is bubble and airand blood pours in torrentsat… Read More
2016-04-09 18:58
As I walked through London, I saw Christmas decorations lighting up the sky. It felt like humanity's last ditch attempt at brightness before the deepest part of our winter, our hibernation… Read More
2016-04-09 18:55
Carmen laughed at our willingness to participate in two cacao ceremonies in two weeks, 'We are cacao junkies!' Over this year, this subtle but powerful plant medicine has provided me w… Read More
2016-04-09 18:50
For so long he had tried to convince me to move there... 'You'll love London, it's great!' 'But what's so great about it?' I asked. 'The sheer variety, that whatever you… Read More
2016-04-09 18:48
It's almost a joke between us now - his inability to plan. 'I can't find ping pong anywhere except in Hackney,' he said, frantically searching the net mere hours before we were suppo… Read More
2016-04-09 18:46
Part 1: B- Part 1Part 2: B- Part 2 Part 3: B- Part 3Part 4: B- Part 4 Part 5: B- Part 5 Simta’s birthday arrives and we dress in our best clothes for the occasion. Heal… Read More
2016-04-09 18:44
Part 1: B- Part 1Part 2: B- Part 2 Part 3: B- Part 3Part 4: B- Part 4 Part 5: B- Part 5 Part 6: B- Part 6We retire to our beds. Kairo and I, unable to sleep easily, we drift in and… Read More
2016-04-09 18:42
New year! New adventures in Cacao!I skipped happily to the centre where we were to meet for ceremony in anticipation for another meeting with Old Mother Cacao. As soon as I had paid my ticke… Read More
2016-04-09 18:41
My mama told me I am a grown woman now and that I will know…Know what?Know when to work at things and when to let go.I am a believer in making things work – I am a believer in… Read More
2016-04-09 18:40
Spring is always uncertain. I never know whether to quite believe in it. It combines the worst of winter and the best of summer, sometimes in one day. Yet somehow I am starting to see buds f… Read More
2016-04-09 18:40
***Warning! Pretty long post!*** It had been nearly two weeks of almost radio silence. A big indicator of a longer silence to come. Initially, I went into panic mode - inner turmoil pushed t… Read More
2016-04-09 18:39
Oh I am so blessed as my sisterhood weave and entwine with my body, soul and emotions. They plait my hair with their joy, wash my body with their tears and hold me with their hands whilst th… Read More
2016-04-09 18:36
I walked back into the Shaman's circle - I started to notice that I am making friends with the people who hear the call of cacao, all of us searching for more... We greeted each other and as… Read More
2016-04-09 18:35
The night before I laid down in a circle with men and women and allowed instruments and voice to vibrate and help tune up my vibrations, in preparation for my weekend of dance, sweat and Cac… Read More
2016-04-09 18:35
The Man from The Bush turned around and told me, ‘It’s so easy to forget what we learn. We need to practice regularly, what a waste of a life it is if we just keep relearni… Read More
2016-02-14 13:18
In the wake of Lebanese and Parisian pain, we gathered together to help ease some of the dis-ease throughout the world at this time. The card I received was, ‘Letting Go’.I… Read More
2006-06-07 11:16
Part 1: B- Part 1 Part 2: B- Part 2Kairo and I make every effort to nurse the children's exhaustion and weakness. After many days they look healthy and we start to talk and get to know… Read More
2006-06-07 11:16
Please read part 1: B- Part 1 After breakfast, Kairo takes the boys out to the village to collect a little food. I ask Sadie to sit by me and we start to talk. I wonder if my mem… Read More
2006-06-07 11:16
To all my readers out there - thank you so much for being a part of my adventures. Little did I know that this small blog could reach so many countries far and wide! So, from London, I send… Read More
2006-06-07 11:16
Part 1: B- Part 1Part 2: B- Part 2 Part 3: B- Part 3Part 4: B- Part 4Once we are home, the boys make presents for Simta. When Sadie arrives she asks her brothers what they are doing. “… Read More
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