Day 19
Think of your greatest Fear. Imagine that you finally confront it. Write
lyrics about how you imagine the events unfolding in your mind. Take
care to write your lyrics in a tactful way if you don’t want anyone
knowing the lyrics are about you.
Don't Fear FEAR
Trying to think of my greatest fear
Sounds like tempting fate
Sure things could be worse
Or better
But it doesn't keep me up late
If it's not inside already, why
Why would I invite it?
What good to test my boat's hull with a hammer?
My window glass with a brick?
To poke holes in the armor
I've spent a lifetime forging
Just seems like a bad idea
Falling down into a canyon
Some bottomless abyss
Used to be a fear I had
Like ceasing to exist
Growing old, becoming less
I've already had to own
And death seems like a friend
When you've lived your life alone
Point a weapon at my face
Test me if I flinch
Probably, yes, I suppose
I might just fail the test
I've walked straight into
The darkest places
I've opened Pandora's box
I've followed threads to their conclusion
It ain't nothin'
Fear ain't nothin' at all
Nothing to fear if it's already here
My ignorance is bliss
But if you insist, here's a list
Some of the fears I possess
Surprises -- any and all, can still throw me off my game
Things not working out -- I've accepted, that's the norm
Things breaking -- they kind of do that, regardless
People hating -- they do that too, I know the world is heartless
Losing things and people -- I've learned don't be attached
Losing my mind -- what would so bad about that?
Not caring -- perhaps, but only intellectually
Being abandoned -- I've done it, so I expect it will be done to me
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I wasn't really feeling this one. I am not in a fearful frame of mind at this time. More frustrated, really, if I have to put a label on what it is I feel most. Close second, would be the sprinkling of melancholy, the tidbits of sadness, that I have to set out intentionally, as kindling, to get any kind of empathic reaction. I use sadness like a spice, sparingly, these days.
I'm just not afraid...but maybe I should be?
Like fear of underperforming. Might that not make me try harder, achieve more? Fear of people not liking me could be helpful, might make me more considerate. Fear, like pain, exists for a reason. A warning: "Look out! Go the other way!"
Oh, and I guess fear doesn't scare me as much because I fond memories of my punk days, and FEAR was my favorite band for a time.
