I thought I am already safe to the usual questions asked by Family members during family reunions. Recently, someone asked me my age. After hearing my answer, as expected, the next question would be “Do you already have a girlfriend”. I answered none. Afterwards, I heard comments on me still staying single and having no plans to get married.

Actually, one of the many things that I’ve been thinking about before and after the new year is where I am in my life as I turn 40 years old in few years time. I think it somehow hit me hard this time.

Me and my friends would sometimes compare ourselves with some of our batch mates who have their own families now. In reality, we are different from one another. One’s situation is not the same for another. Our phasing is different from each other as well. I know, it’s easy to say that, but hard to do most of the time.

While checking the Instagram stories of my IG friends yesterday, I saw this quote:

It’s okay to disappear until you feel like you again.

I feel that the quote would somehow best describe how I am feeling at the moment. It’s not that I am happy. Whenever I feel like this, I am glad to be reminded of the other things that I am grateful for. It’s just that a part of me right now doesn’t make me feel as me. And it is something that I am trying to work out for now.