Everything is just so Overwhelming at the moment, I defiantly have a lot of regrets with education decisions, ATAR was a big mistake its to much. I thought I researched enough about getting into my course but turns out I didn't. Theres tons of different pathways and I've put myself through all this pressure for nothing. Every weekend I'm saying to myself okay we are going to get everything done and then I end up on Facebook for 7 hours looking at how to peel fruits the right way.
I think all of this Negativity is coming from this overwhelming amount of things happening in my life at the moment, not being able to keep up with school, crashing my car and all the bills that come with it, and finding time to get things done around work. People suggest cancelling work but I cant stop work because I need the money, theres just so much to do and theres only one of me.
Now that is all out I would like to just flush out all my negativity and look more positively towards the future. Sometimes you just need a day off, relax and get everything done. Hopefully next week I will be on top of everything and ready to just power through to graduation. I definitely have my boyfriend to thank for picking me up and guiding me through when I was at my lowest and I don’t know where I would be without him, I was so close to just giving up everything.
I really don’t want my blog to be in anyway negative but this just shows that everyone goes through rough patches and struggles, and sometimes things get hard. You are not alone. You just have to know that you have the strength to help yourself and sometimes when you don’t just know that others know what you are going through and that you can help each other. Look at things in a positive light, we are all so young and have a whole life ahead of us, things don’t always go right but in the end we can only do so much. You will get there if you are determined just don’t lose hope on your goals and your future.
Going to end this with a positive and one of my favourite quotes:
“Everyone wants happiness, nobody wants pain,
but you cant have a little sunshine, without a little rain”
See you soon.