This post is coming a bit late, a few hours past midnight because my parents have had a party and we spent the day organising for it but it is bed time for me now, but still want to write about this. So, I've been in a Relationship with a guy called Laityn for a year and one week now. We are not like other couples. Theres an age difference people react to, we have spent the past six months being apart and we have a baby together.I'm kind of a hopeless romantic, in the sense that I've never found true love before, because I wanted it so badly if that makes sense. I just wanted something movie-like, every girl does, and I never got it before, until I met Laityn. I believe in faith, and I believe that Laityn and I were brought to each other to make our son, and even if we might not last forever, at least we will always have him. When I first met my boyfriend, he was with his brother and mum, but all I saw was him. There was just something about him the minute we met. It was not that he was amazingly attractive or anything, but he had something I'd never seen in anyone else. He was often out at sea so I did not get to know him straight away but once we did, we got to know each other really fast. Everything about us has been fast. I remember one time, we were a couple of people hanging out in my room and someone cracked a joke, and Laityn did a half-laugh smile thing and I thought it was the most gorgeous thing and I completely melted. I've never given my heart to someone like this before and it is so scary because I know how easy it can break. He has broken it, but he's also completed it. Our first few months together was a big question mark. Other people were involved, we did not know how we felt about one another, we both were to scared to take further steps. Then we became an official couple on the 30th of July, 2015, and we spent six months basically attached to one another. We did everything together, I told him everything about me, I ugly cried in front of him and walked around with my morning hair for several days around him. Never have I gotten to know someone so quick and never have I been so comfortable with anyone before either. Deciding to leave him was the hardest decision I've ever made, and till this day it still hurts. But the longing for him has become a habit rather than a pain. Our relationship now is undefined. I don't think there are words for it, and I do not think others understand it. It is like we want so much from each other that we can't have and it has caused problems, it has not been easy, but the love is still there, and no matter how we might be now, I can already just imagine what it will be like when we see each other again. Like nothings changed, all is forgiven, all is beautiful, and we can get back what we had before. But better, because now we have the most beautiful little boy in the world and in all this pain and confusion, I'm the luckiest person alive.