Monday, a new week. Time flies by so fast, I feel like it is Monday every single day. I am actually a bit sick today, my head feels heavy and my nose won't stop running, I just want to get well so I am going to go to bed early. I've needed to keep myself busy all day because as fast as I sat down, I almost fell asleep. Haha, I can't do that while having Noah playing around and being all silly, he needs his momma to take care of him. Noah and I are super cosy. We cuddle, and we laugh. We just have the most amazing time together. However, I am starting to realise that a family with only two members can be a bit lonely. Noah can be very clingy at times, which usually is great, I love bubba's hugs haha but when I am cooking, or cleaning, a lot of the times, I have to leave Noah crying on the floor, and it is heartbreaking. I always keep thinking, if Noah had his father around, he could be with him now, or if Noah had a sibling, they could be playing together... Yes, I said it, a sibling...

I know I want a lot of children, and I also know that my life situation is not the best to bring a second child into right now, but I feel bad for Lonely Children, and even though Noah has me, I have to be the grown up and from what I've seen, lonely children easily become spoiled. It aches in my heart hearing my friends who are now pregnant, or looking back at photos of myself with Noah in my belly because I want to do it all again. But before I make the decision to mother another child, I will figure my own life out, and I will figure my relationship with Noah's father out. So in a month, we are probably heading off to see him in Australia, and I just hope and pray that we can work everything out.

But for now, I am going to lay down next to my son, so he knows that he's never alone, I'm always here for him. Good night and much love beautiful readers