9:29 pm
I'm about to celebrate Living "peacefully" alone semiannually. This year thought me more than the past lessons combined. The biggest takeaway from this whole ordeal is finding out about myself. For I am still truly amazed at my ability to lead myself out of the cocoon and make attempts at things deemed impossible if it still sheltered me at my parent's domicile. In the latter half of the year, I reckon I excelled at finally noticing my self-worth, although such a notion should not be threaded lightly. I have a lot to manifest for the upcoming months, a lot more tears to shed, and a lot more excuses to tell myself to let it go.
This month was my peak as I took up yoga as a tranquilizing hobby to pacify my irritability.
The next big thing I will be focusing on is finding the right neighborhood in 2023. Been blessed with the calming stillness of a river view from where I am currently renting. Though I shall not conceal the fact that living with a male landlord is awkward at unprecedented times, the stumping foot noises and sleeping at odd hours predominantly sparked this whole new idea of moving out again. I do appreciate living here, building safety nest sturdily where I call it home erratically. I recall enjoying the quietness of the house when he is away for a long holiday. I became a stereotypical loud neighbor, blasting music and singing at my heart's content. Not giving a flying fuck about the surroundings and experiencing that quintessence of my being.
Why does it seem like I am giving a speech to bid my adieu? I ain't living this nest yet. Perhaps, the most important yet agonizing step is to look for a new place that I can hopefully reside in for over 4 years.
The new year has arrived. Though it is important to recognize the efforts and discomforts faced in the past year. Though I can't recall any more of what happened, I am glad that I moved forward wholeheartedly. Luckily enough, the pre-cocktail celebration and fireworks landed at the Comfort of my current domicile. With a little glimpse of hope left in me, I embraced the new year with more welcoming notes.
