So, I’ve been taking Melatonin almost every night for the past month. My tablets are each 10mg, and too hard for me to break in half to have a lower dosage.

I guess the suggested dose is 2-5mg to avoid having short term side effects such as: irritability, depression, and daytime sleepiness. All of which I have, but also did before starting melatonin so I’m not sure this dose has made any impact to how I already was.

I’m using it because it’s was taking me an hour ish or more each night to Fall Asleep due to anxiety and insomnia, and I wanted to fix that and get more sleep.

Insomnia is when it takes you half hour or more, 3 times a week, to Fall asleep.

Yup, that’s me.

Plus, it kind of runs in my family, showing in my grandma and mom.

On the bottle, it also says that for use past 4 weeks, consult your doctor.

Last week, I realized I was starting to run out of pills, so I went to the store and got another bottle (30 pills). This is an over the counter sleep aid, you don’t need a prescription for it.

Now with one tablet left in the bottle, I’m stopping use.

This is mainly for the reason that my boyfriend says I should follow the label and consult my doctor before continuing use and I’m not really up for that, but I also wanted to do sort of an experiment.

Next weekend, I know I’ll need that one pill, so I’m saving it for then, and going without aside from that, until a month from now. The night of October 16th, when if needed, I’ll allow myself to start that next bottle.

With the month in between bottles, I’m thinking it’s okay to start melatonin again after without consulting my doctor, because it will be completely out of my system by then.

So, no more melatonin, for a month, other than that one night.

This. Is. Going. To. Suck.

I’ve gotten used to my 15-20 minutes it takes to fall asleep each night compared to the 45 mins to an hour that it used to take.
The only time I can fall asleep quickly without this pill is if I’ve completely exhausted myself during the day and I just pass out… and I’m not really up for exhausting myself each day just to fall asleep quicker.

I’m not sure how well this will go. I’m expecting later nights with my still-early mornings, late night calls to my boyfriend who gets me to call if I can’t sleep  (he’s the sweetest), and long days full of coffee to keep me going.

I’m also anticipating more irritability, more neutral days and anxiety, and grogginess, from not sleeping as well.

I might try to start meditation again to help me through this process but I’m going to try for the first two weeks without and see where that takes me.

I don’t want to have to rely on sleeping aids, or meditation, to help me sleep, but this is where I am right now.

Once the month is done, and throughout, I’ll give updates for you guys to see this rollercoaster I’m about to strap into.

Sleeping in an hour or so, without melatonin, one of the first times in a month.

Wish me luck!

Stay strong,

Xx

-Cass