Washington DC 2018 Part I

         Travelling is something that gives many people anxiety, which in my opinion is totally understandable. However, what happens when you already live with generalized anxiety and you add another reason to be anxious about.
          Well, that was the question that I had for about a year ago when I was offered to go on a one-week trip to Texas with my school. This was when I thought my anxiety was going to go away someday somehow. I didn't go to Texas that summer because I thought it was not the reasonable decision for me at the team.My parents agreed. At the beginning of this year, a new trip opened up but I wasn't eligible to go on it. My friend was going on the trip. Since I knew I was never going to actually be able to go because the trip wasn't open to me I had no problem saying to my friend that if I could go I would go.
          Midway through the year, the trip became available for me to go on as a student. I had already built up this fantasy of the trip that it was hard for me to dismiss it. The truth was I wanted to go. I sat down with my mom and assured her that I wanted to go on the trip. She asked me if I was confident because it was a trip that involved getting on a plane and everything. I lied and said I was sure.
          You might ask why I lied, but the truth was that when you have anxiety sometimes you need to get out of the comfort zone, if not you will never live life. My worst fear about the trip was that I was going to have a panic attack and not have my security blanket with me (my mom). But this was something I had to achieve because my mom will not always be around. I have to get used to the idea. People with anxiety shouldn't be dependent on anyone or anything except themselves.
With this in mind, I decided to say YES to the trip!
*Part II coming soon