I have always loved to Write. I wrote for the school newspaper many years ago and loved it. I loved seeing something I had written in print and knowing that people were actually reading it. Unfortunately, for a long time life got in the way and it wasn't until 2 months ago that I decided to start writing again.
It was the best decision I could have made. I needed an outlet. I have suffered with anxiety for over a year, you can read my story here and here. I needed something to do, I needed something to focus on. My son, who spends every waking moment on the internet suggested I write some sort of online journal. I will be honest with you, I laughed. I didn't know where to start. Nevertheless, many weeks and many internet searches later, my blog was born.
When I started to write I could feel all of the tension and worry slipping away. I wrote about everything, and the more I wrote the better I felt. I have written things in this blog that I have never said to anyone. It has been extremely therapeutic and has allowed me open up like I never have before.
Blogging has also forced me to communicate more. I'm an introvert and the anxiety sometimes makes it very difficult to interact with others. Thanks to my blog, the more emails and messages I send the easier it becomes.
Fellow anxiety sufferers will know that the best thing to do is to keep occupied. Blogging is great for this, there is always something to do. Whenever I feel twitchy I start looking for images I need or make graphics for my pins.
It's been a learning curve, 2 months ago I knew nothing about blogging. I started from scratch and I still have a long way to go, but I feel I have learned so much already. There is an amazing community of bloggers out there who have given me so much help and I feel like I'm getting somewhere now. I may never take the blogging world by storm but I think I have achieved something I can be proud of.
My blog is healing me in ways that medication never will. When I write, the thoughts and feelings come pouring out. I can write things that I will never be able to say. I'm happier, calmer and feel better equipped to deal with life. It doesn't matter if 2 or 2000 people read my blog, I will keep writing it, because I need to.
What impact has blogging had on you?
