Young blood…..
What has become of you today?

You look troubled. Conflicted. All while moving with a mystical sass.

Ironically, these character traits seem to suit your class.

A fool that was loyal to his dream to a fault. The reason the looping effect didn’t come to a halt.

You have indeed always been the very thing you swore to destroy. The bane of your existence. Yet, still a boy.

Or so they continue to misjudge you as that too. Because you reached a quarter of your life with no tattoo.

But the question remains, “what is there to prove?”.

How can one ever feel unsatisfied on such a majestic planet? With nothing the prove to this world, you still crave otherworldly challenges forever contradicting yourself on changing. What the hell is it that really upset you to cause such a violent side of you to present? What is this ancient Demon that has awakened within you?

There is no justifying your disturbing actions. But a shrug of the shoulder is all that you do in response to the disturbed. You already apologized in advance some time ago you’d say. If the shoe fits watch where you step. Or just remain as distant as possible from the crossfire.

Yet, why is there even a war going on before you? There should be no war. Only peace.

You should be in a happy place. Wherever your heart desires to go you should be able to always have a way. You’re the believer after all. You see the Face you carry when you gaze into the mirror. It has indeed been recognized. Valued. Appreciated. But it cannot hide the vicious tongue.

You think nothing ever will though. As if you are forever doomed with the inner turmoil of not knowing what you truly want out of life.

If it was to be left alone, you managed to forcefully take back your freedom for over 2 years. You’ve seen the world time & time again. Nobody has stopped you of any goal. And you have even bonded with strangers.

You are a good dude. That’s what they keep on saying out here. That is what you should be as good integrity never goes unrewarding. Yet, you are no saint. Even the Angels knew long before. It was just in your nature to fulfill that prophecy as they reveal to you all the actions you’ve made to contradict ever calling claiming to be holier than thou.

The truth you hold & the truth your express are sincere. It moves continents. Think of how many people read what you write or type on a regular. And then wake up to the fact that their eyes & mouths work just like yours to reciprocate the truth they had no power to express like you. They need you whether they like to confess it or not. They’ll always need you whether they want to even accept that or not either.

You were born on this Earth before Y2k. 2 years early to be exact. You saw world vividly clear once upon a time ago. The separation of your parents & the constant move for a better or worse change. Was your happiness always considered in it all? Of course not. You had no heart to tell it & they removed the will to listen the reason of it. Maybe that is why that turmoil of darkness lasted so long. Maybe that is why you met your demon face to face.

Why did you start to see through it one night? You were indeed afraid of the dark. You spoke the words “I see through the lies of Satan” with blurred vision and red eyes. The demon flashed in your vision a couple times following that statement being said, but its size was smaller each appearance to the point of disintegration. It was as tall as your own human body standing in the corner nearest to the door. When the sun was shining through the window, that corner still looked vacant but only you knew at night something wasn’t helping you sleep right.

All it took was one move. The sleep never lost the fight.