“Is it you? Are you really him?” ” Are you IT?”

“Nah he’s not it. Ain’t no way. I don’t see it. He still don’t get it. Man get him out of here.”

“There’s always someone wishing to be “it” everyday. This ain’t nothing new. Give him the same ol’ run we gave all the others who Swore they were “it”. It just keeps getting better every year.”

“I mean just LOOK at HIM. Like….HOW can you call THAT “IT”?!”

“The term is “come as you are” after all. Who are you to discriminate?” – Steph J. Millz

It is almost as if the word “him” became an imaginary figure to the people. They don’t know what makes you “him”. They speculate on what he did that made him….”him”. He was like no other they say. Not ordinary. Not average. Not like what our day to day realities are used to witnessing ever. We always question how do we become like “him”? If we set our minds to something, we can make anything happen right? SO I set my mind to be like “him”. Did I do something wrong in that?

Yes.

I wasn’t suppose to do that. You can’t imitate such a being. That is why the word “him” is so sacred all around. We wish we could live in the time where he was present to experience him up close so we can carry that forever in our memories. Did you notice how much he was referenced? How many times you heard his name? How many times you swore you saw him presently. Like he sent YOU a message out of all the people in the world. You said you saw him, and everyone said we all thought we saw him too.

But I wasn’t lying.

That is EXACTLY what they all say too. They know what they saw. They are not tripping. Something is happening to them & they don’t know what. You can try to explain with logic all day & night to the person that swore they saw something so otherworldly that you just will NOT ever believe it unless you were a witness like them.

“You & your wild philosophical world need several reality checks. I mean I wasn’t going to be the one that did it at first but now is as good of time as any.”

Spirit is after all, the one thing you cannot break from a human. Do you want to know how many times my spirit was tested? Do you want to know how many times I was almost corrupted fully? How it would’ve happened so silently in the dark to where one day you would have wondered what the hell happened to him to make him do what he did today. He wasn’t like that yesterday, or the day before. Or even weeks ago he was stable for quite sometime saying he was always fine. So it was a lie huh? You never was. And the truth was it was because we all said you’re not “him” when you thought you were.

“Everybody has a chance in life to be whatever it is they want to be. So why do you want to be something that is IMPOSSIBLE to be? WAKE UP SON! You’re losing it!”

“Stop.”

You don’t know how many times I’ve found myself saying that word. “Stop. Just stop.” And that’s how I close it out. Almost as if I made you look dumbstruck by stopping you in your tracks & making you stand there on everything you was about to say to me as I put my earbuds back in. I hope you didn’t get too upset from that. If it was rude of me to block out the unnecessary noise in my vicinity, sorry for being selfish trying to not let your words even get to me. Not like you’re the first one that tried, not like you’ll be the last one either.

At least what is playing in my ears is currently keeping me stable so I can watch you lose yourself to regular day to day things that I realize can’t effect me in the slightest anymore having a decent amount of years on the Earth to figure things out myself. If you want help, you have to find it. If I believe I did, then what is your deal questioning me if I say nothing to you?

The answers lie within the actions of who you kept saying could never be “him”. That is why you’ve been fighting this long battle trying to convince that there is no such thing as the “real him” in our world. You pray for “him” to come though. You pray he would make something out of nothing for you. You KNOW his power enough to see how prayers have indeed been answered by him. Yet, you still carry self doubt feeling you have to take matters into your own hands. Sometimes, it would be against his will right? That’s what makes you the alpha. You always challenge the higher power & seem to have respect when it responds to you. That is because a message was given to you so you never forget to never challenge the power of the divine.

However, those that saw you challenge that power, would & could never attempt it themselves. You knew that already though didn’t you?

“I mean just LOOK at HIM. Like….HOW can you call THAT “IT”?!”

“The term is “come as you are” after all. Who are you to discriminate?” – Steph J. Millz

Damnit man. STOP UNDERESTIMATING HIM!!!!