2023-01-25 21:52
“Is it you? Are you really him?” ” Are you IT?”
“Nah he’s not it. Ain’t no way. I don’t see it. He still don’t get it. Man get him ou… Read More
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This is a new start for me. Writing was something I was gifted with at a very young age. I used to try & write my own chapter books & such just for the thrill of using my imagination to it’s fullest potential. This is my first attempt at expressing my writing talent to the public. Though, I am willing to speak my mind on any topic as best as I can. I often love being questioned about something & asked for my opinion. It gives me the chance to improve my speech & be less afraid when there’s a crowd watching & listening.
2022-02-20 17:00
Well, how’s this for a grand return?
I realized what all the truth telling did. Set me completely free.
It took 8 years of waiting ever so patiently just to do this. The keywor… Read More
2021-03-19 23:39
2021-02-24 13:17
I don’t know how it happened so quickly.
It is all still a blur. That day I cried the hardest cry ever in my life, I felt a cleanse to my spirit. Like a crown chakra opening up… Read More
2021-02-20 05:25
I had that for quite some time.
The light side & the dark side.
T’Challa & N’Jadaka.
A royal side & a rebellious side.
Are you fit to be a king? Or are… Read More
2021-02-07 16:41
Let me tell you something about “The Dark Side”.
They say it’s a pathway to many abilities that are considered….”unnatural”.
I know that term well… Read More
2021-01-24 07:49
I can move again. Free from restraints. I can think again. Free from blockages. I can feel again. Free from pains.
I fell hard in my life from powerful loses. Such as losing faith, will… Read More
2021-01-14 01:40
Awakened. Evolved. Improved.
I felt him. His presence. His power.
To my mother, I love you dearly. And to my father, I respect you sincerely.
Vice versa.
I love everyone. My f… Read More
2020-11-29 19:36
Monday, November 2nd, 1998
I woke up in a bad dream. My head felt two sizes too big for my brain with what I had awoken to. They always said I had a big head to begin with. My body would… Read More
2020-09-30 20:37
I wake up everyday to the trauma that never left my soul. I lost my mother, my father & my brothers in a single session. I was innocent, though not a perfect child. We each come with fla… Read More
2020-08-13 14:07
I have fears.
But I am not afraid of them.
Because I am the master of my faith.
I control the horizontal & the vertical of my will.
And my courage is indomitable.
For so long, I felt my… Read More
2020-05-31 17:52
I am not okay.
I have a lot of things to say.
But there isn’t enough hours in the day.
So I have to find a way.
Or go away.
But nah I’d rather stay.
Because my faith won’t… Read More
2020-03-10 03:53
Is it my own fault as to why I have yet to experience genuine love again?
Probably so.
I’ve seen it. I’ve had it. Felt it. And even lost it.
I wasn’t so deserving of it.
He… Read More
2020-01-24 16:10
Nothing has been the same since you left.
I am far from myself.
Trying to be things I feel I cannot.
It isn’t what you would want from me.
You knew the real me. You had accepted it wit… Read More
2020-01-19 20:53
The woman that I marry will have accepted who I am just as I would accept who she is.
The one I consider a true best friend will understand that we are no better than anybody.
My children wi… Read More
2019-12-23 21:10
I should have it all figured out by now.
I should have it all right now.
Because many others have it figured out.
And many others already have it now.
Even earlier than expected.
And if not… Read More
2019-12-16 12:45
We want all the time in the world, but we cannot have it.
Instead we are given limited. And we expect to do all the things in the world within that time we have.
But each time the clock tick… Read More
2019-10-31 03:27
Some wish for simple things.
Some wish for difficult things.
Some wish for immediate things.
Some wish for gradual things.
And some may wish for it all in one.
What is it that I truly wish f… Read More
2019-10-22 08:04
2019-10-05 16:03
I could be that person….
The one that carries a cold & dark heart, a soulless vessel with no care for life & even my own.
I could be that person….
The one that destroys… Read More
2019-09-15 20:49
For a while, there was this….turmoil.
Where one’s decisions & life choices would override how they are viewed.
Bringing about mixed feelings or reasons to remain distant or… Read More
2019-08-23 19:04
Is it a curse or a blessing to have?
How would one even know what it is to be?
You only see one way. One way that could be the right way as you’d believe it to be.
Or it could be just… Read More
2019-08-08 20:53
We have lost it once before.
Believing there wouldn’t be a way.
Assuming there’d be no light at the end of the tunnel.
Thinking we’d be nothing more but a failure.
And then… Read More
2019-07-16 04:10
“The training is nothing! The will is everything! The will to act.” – Ra’s al Ghul , Batman Begins
No matter how prepared you think you are, without the will to act… Read More
2019-07-03 18:59
“I’ll beat yo ass if you ever back talk me again.”
“I’ll beat yo ass if ask me where’s daddy again.”
“I’ll beat yo ass if I get a call f… Read More
2019-06-14 17:20
Straight from the hood, yet never from the streets.
Society already sees me as a failure.
Why is that?
Because anyone that lives in poverty will never succeed? All they will ever be is crimi… Read More
2019-06-01 11:25
So that is how it is huh?
I say how I feel & it means nothing to you?
Or because you don’t see anything more happening between us?
But when it comes to your feelings & what you… Read More
2019-05-27 05:15
Its only you.
Who else would it be if not you?
I can’t avoid you.
I can’t ignore you.
I can’t deny you.
And I can’t say that I’m absolutely fine without you.
Be… Read More
2019-05-10 03:09
In a world so enormous & full of unexplored places, there is no doubt that humans are not the only beings that walk the Earth. There have been an incredible number of witnesses to phenom… Read More
2019-05-02 04:26
*Viewer’s discretion is advised*
Am I wrong for this?
Allowing this darker half to begin having control over the mind.
I’ll be just like the others. Living life with no remorse… Read More
2019-04-21 19:34
A hero he once was. A righteous man. A savior to many. He was a humbled & gracious human being.
The good in him always flourished. Always taking the righteous path to be a contributer to… Read More
2019-04-06 09:02
I feel it everyday.
Sorrow. Remorse.
I don’t know why, but it does not ever end.
They say I either walk the world with a look of frustration & anger, or a look of sadness & mis… Read More
2019-03-31 00:51
Love is hard when you are young.
It always is, always has, & always will be.
We’re so full of ourselves when we’re young. Thinking we know it all. Thinking we have everything… Read More
2019-03-28 12:31
I had to make a choice.
A choice that determined who I loved more.
My future wife, or my self adopted brothers.
The life I was living was always thrilling, rewarding, I had everything I ever… Read More
2019-03-22 04:49
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2019-03-10 03:36
At a distance before him was some sort of floating entity. It had the appearance of a beautiful woman. A woman he would marry instantly on sight without hesitation.
Gorgeous in a bright whit… Read More
2019-02-27 19:22
It is….weird.
The position I am in.
I have the tools that are key to me building my success.
But it is not quite kicking off so well as I would’ve thought.
Not saying I have not… Read More
2019-02-24 13:04
We all have one.
Our opposite.
Our counterpart.
A side that takes the extra mile you wouldn’t be so willing to take.
The one that isn’t fearful to consequences for the actions ta… Read More
2019-02-19 04:40
I chose this path.
I knew what I was doing. I knew what I was doing was wrong.
But it still felt right because I was gaining things that I wanted.
Yet, it wasn’t earned the… Read More
2019-02-19 04:40
I chose this path.
I knew what I was doing. I knew what I was doing was wrong.
But it still felt right because I was gaining things that I wanted.
Yet, it wasn’t earned the… Read More
2019-02-12 22:55
I had what I needed to be on the path of righteousness. A family, a home, guidance, a drive to be successful. My grades were excellent, my intellect was unmatched, nobody ever doubted me eve… Read More
2019-02-12 22:55
I had what I needed to be on the path of righteousness. A family, a home, guidance, a drive to be successful. My grades were excellent, my intellect was unmatched, nobody ever doubted me eve… Read More
2019-02-07 01:38
How far would you go to avenge your family? In a drug corrupted city of Wilmington, a young man’s desire for vengeance becomes tested when he learns of all those that may have contribu… Read More
2019-02-03 04:11
I have changed.
In more ways than one.
Much more than ever before.
I welcome it.
I embrace it.
I empower it.
But what many would not expect is that deep inside, there is hatred for it.
As we… Read More
2019-01-16 11:46
We all have a different reaction to pain.
Some of us react externally, such as jump in shock, scream, cry, or become enraged.
Some of us react, but rather internally than externally. Such as… Read More
2019-01-13 14:26
Hello everyone! It has been a while since I myself last spoke other than speaking from stories & content created for you.
2018 has been quite a productive year for me. Working two jobs… Read More
2019-01-10 09:27
A young boy’s father was murdered when he was only six years old.
Before his murder, it was only the boy & his father for as the mother decided to venture into another relationship… Read More
2019-01-06 02:59
Freed from the prison I trapped myself in, yet inside I still feel like in some way I still should be back in it.
Why?
Well, I just discovered that I am still the very person in which caused… Read More
2018-12-20 19:18
It has been quite a long time hasn’t it?
Seven years.
A lot has happened in between that time-line I can tell you that.
A lot of changes, growth, tragedies, pain. Yet, we meet again as… Read More
2018-12-14 18:58
I had quite an interesting encounter with someone. A sharp looking black man dressed in a business-professional attire, who had an offer that a normal person couldn’t refuse.
An opport… Read More
2018-11-30 16:17
I have recently been updating my YouTube channel! Please take the time to pay a visit to the channel, give some likes to the latest videos, & subscribe to stay tuned for more uploads!
I… Read More
2018-11-15 11:58
Man is believed to be the most powerful being in the world.
And also the most dangerous.
The key to that power & danger does not lie in physique. Nor does speed. Though such things do bo… Read More
2018-11-10 20:16
A voice in my head speaks as I walk the streets:
“You miss her don’t you Steph?”
I mean, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t in all honesty. She probably knows that… Read More
2018-11-08 19:51
Maybe I’m the old-fashion shy. The one that crushes from a distance & sends subliminal messages about who my eyes have set sights on. Such as leaving a heartfelt comment or m… Read More
2018-09-28 10:22
“Why did you do it?”
“Do what?”
“Why did you hurt her?”
“What are you talking about?”
“You are far from delusional on this matter. You k… Read More
2018-09-11 21:54
Growing up, I never cared much for how I dressed. I’d walk out the door wearing mismatched clothes unaware of the general principle to wearing clothes. I’m talking walking outsid… Read More
2018-08-06 02:47
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2018-08-05 23:40
It is one thing to be physically behind bars for a crime
one has committed, but it is a completely different scenario when there are bars that surround your mind that you imagined to be ther… Read More
2018-08-01 19:07
There once was a group of five longtime close friends. They were there for each other through everything. They would help each other through all troubles. They would be there for each other… Read More
2018-07-18 15:35
Thomas Anderson, a straight “A” honor roll sophomore student in high school, always wanted to fit in with the popular crowd in. Though, his nerdy & unusual appearance would g… Read More
2018-07-06 19:55
New video post on YouTube Channel!
Please give a like, comment & subscribe to the channel! Show some love & support for this new journey that I believe can lead us to something big!… Read More
2018-07-04 22:34
On a dark evening, a young man rushes up to his room & opens his closet to pull out a container thats stashed away. Upon opening it reveals a 9mm Pistol with six bullets beside it.
He ga… Read More
2018-07-01 10:18
I always remember the day we met like it was yesterday.
Had found myself with butterflies in my stomach to get to know her. Amazed at what a fine woman she became. The beauty, the wisdom, &a&hell…Read More
2018-06-09 00:22
There was a question (well a few actually) I spotted on Instagram one day that stimulated my thoughts.
The questions were: “Do you think rich & famous people have an obligation to… Read More
2018-06-04 17:06
New video post on YouTube Channel!
Please give a like, comment & subscribe to the channel! Show some love & support for this new journey that I believe can lead us to something big!… Read More
2018-06-03 15:50
Another new beginning it is!
To all my followers & supporters, & those reading, I am pleased to announce the introduction of my official blog page!
I am alone on this project, so pl… Read More
2018-05-14 14:44
My parents had me when they were truly ready.
They were hardworking, classy, wealthy, & healthy.
Whatever needed to be done, they succeeded.
They provided me with everything I needed.
Th… Read More
2018-04-25 08:34
Boy do I love it.
Beauty from the power of nature & not mankind.
Just imagine fresh green grass, a cloudless sunny sky on a sweet day in spring, fresh clear blue water, & a gentle co… Read More
2018-04-09 02:08
My Son,
“You are my creation, my motivation, my inspiration.”
You are my light that shines bright everyday & night.”
“You are my escape from a world out of shape… Read More
2018-04-06 05:24
“I want to do something with my life man.”
“There’s a lot of things you can do. You just have to find what suits you best.”
“Yeah but…what if I can… Read More
2018-04-04 05:13
Is it easier to hold on, or let go?
As you hold on, you retain all the thoughts, all the emotions, all the pain, all the stress.
When you let go, you abandon it all. You purge yourself from… Read More
2018-04-02 10:09
“Wh-wh-who are you??”
With a sinister smile, the illusion replied, “I am you.”
“No. No you aren’t!”
“Yes. Yes I am.”
“No…no… Read More
2018-03-31 19:27
Good day everyone! I am starting a mission with expanding my blog more out & into the world. I have taken the initiative to dedicate it to an Instagram, Twitter, & Facebook pa… Read More
2018-03-28 00:36
“Dad I don’t know. I feel myself slipping. Like, I don’t understand this whole “life” thing. Don’t know where to go, what to do, how to live. I’m lo… Read More
2018-03-28 00:34
Look,
Life is just getting harder
I try so hard playing smarter
Could never get into Harvard
My dreams keep getting farther
My heart keeps getting darker
My sense aren’t getting sharpe… Read More
2018-03-22 21:22
They were complete strangers.
How they met was unexpected.
Both from two different sides of the earth.
Yet never knew they’d be connected.
A Story of Two
The Girl
An Intelligent, stron… Read More
2018-03-19 16:00
No chance whatsoever.
Maybe because too many were given & blown.
Maybe because deserving them was never shown.
No chance whatsoever, it’ll never be known
No chance of things return… Read More
2018-03-18 17:22
Three young African American boys dressed casually with hoodies are walking down a sidewalk in the evening.
As they walk, unbeknown to them, there is a police cruiser slowly following them f… Read More
2018-03-10 17:22
There, a family sits before the man responsible for the death of a father, who was also a husband, an uncle, brother, and later a grandfather in the court room.
After the trial came close to… Read More
2018-03-08 23:35
New video post on YouTube Channel!
Please give a like, comment & subscribe to the channel! Show some love & support for this new journey that I believe can lead us to something big!… Read More
2018-03-07 03:23
A new beginning indeed for me.
I have decided to create a YouTube channel as an extension to my blog.
I am very open minded. So should there be a topic of any sort you would like to be spoke… Read More
2018-03-06 14:29
What is “The American Dream” to you?
Is it to live in a beautiful suburban home with a family of your own & money to blow?
To live a life peacefully with no mess or stress?
T… Read More
2018-03-04 17:40
Remember when we said we would always stand together side by side? That we would never let our grip on each other let loose no matter what? That we would push through all types of hell that… Read More
2018-03-02 21:42
I am a threat to humanity.
I am a savior to humanity.
I am very infamous.
I am very famous.
I grant power.
I grant protection.
People fear my presence.
People praise my existence.
I am a fac… Read More
2018-02-28 12:17
When you first realize it, you’re in denial. There were multiple times where it could’ve been, but things still held on. Things were still able to be pushed. There was still hope… Read More
2018-01-27 19:08
You ever watched a TV show or Movie at a younger age & not understand the storyline & subliminal or hidden messages they give until you grow with a more developed mind to realize it… Read More
2018-01-19 14:02
When he was needed, he was not there
When she was crying, he did not comfort her
When she gave him everything, he gave back nothing
When she gave him chances, he still continued his ways
Whe… Read More
2018-01-17 01:50
“Hey, can I talk to you for a minute?”
“Sure what’s up?”
“I’ve been thinking lately.”
“About what?”
“About you.”
&ldqu&hell…Read More
2018-01-05 23:53
Wednesday, June 7th, 2017
What an introduction to life it was.
Only two days after graduating high school, I went with my uncle to hang out one night. He was driving, I was in the passenger… Read More
2017-12-28 23:39
“LIEUTENANT WILSON!”
“WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED HERE?!”
“OFFICER DOWN, GET THE PARAMEDICS ON HIM NOW!”
“WHO IS THAT UNDER HIM?!”
“THAT&rsqu&hell…Read More
2017-12-21 20:46
It was over. The nightmares, the pain, the suffering, would all come to a finale. I thought my lust for vengeance would end after all I’ve done to get it. But my vengeance wouldn&rsquo&hell…Read More
2017-11-25 21:47
So today you wake up & decide you want some lemonade!
But you soon realize, life didn’t give you any lemons to make that lemonade.
You’re quite thirsty & lemonade is only… Read More
2017-11-20 18:36
I am no perfect man. Never could I be, nor would it even be possible.
I look back on my life so many times. The experiences, the troubles, the struggles, the pain, some are things I co… Read More
2017-11-14 03:18
My home is far from safe.
It is far from a place to be proud of.
There is more hate than there is love.
There is more violence than there is peace.
There are more deaths & despair than t… Read More
2017-11-10 03:22
Take these two for instance.
Both met unexpectedly, but bonded so well.
One had been looking for love but was struggling to find genuine love.
The same applies to the other, who already felt… Read More
2017-11-09 03:20
You ever had good things happen to you where you grow so excited to tell the world of your accomplishments & success, but then boils down to wanting to tell a certain someone.
That one… Read More
2017-11-06 04:21
I am the third born child in my family under the first two which are older cousins that live in a different state.
However, I am also the first born child in my family locally as my older co… Read More
2017-11-04 04:00
You have been defeated.
Whether it was to someone or something, you stand face to face with defeat.
What do you do?
Do you allow the defeat to tear you apart? Do you lose hope & complete… Read More
2017-11-02 09:33
I stood tall, stood strong, stood confident that I’d be the one to protect you.
I was ready to take on anything, I believed I had an impenetrable defense. You would never be touched, n… Read More
2017-10-31 03:55
Here I am, free from the trenches of a 12 year sentence since the early stage of my life, wondering what is next to do.
High school was quite a crazy ball game. I always imagined it to be fu… Read More
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