Step 1. Cry, cry and cry some more

Step 2. There are no steps

Feel the seemingly impossible moment and pause the world around you. Room upside down. Your head pounding. Your life in the worst crash of its entirety. Or so it seems. And attempt to swallow that huge lump in your throat and let it drop down to your Heart. Look around everywhere you go and enjoy being reminded of them at every sight you see.

Look in the mirror. Hate everything that’s looking back. Clench your fist and shatter your now depressing. Self loathing world. The shards fray off into your now thin skin. The sudden rushes of pain don’t phase you. You felt a different level of pain, the day they walked away.

Take a flame and place it onto those Polaroids hung so cliché on those string lights. Instantly regret it the second you can’t go back.

Wander aimlessly Into the grocery store at 1am and find your feelings at the bottom of a one gallon tub of your favorite Ice Cream. Who cares. No judgement here. You’re not counting your calorie intake. Your heart already took all it could take.

Cry your tears into that old flannel shirt of theirs.  Forget everything you were growing into. Selfless? No not anymore. Not in this moment. Say hi to selfish. Shake depressions hand on your way down to the door step of rock bottom. Knock on the door and be warmly welcomed in. Dinner alone with a bottle of gin.

You see her with him. It gets the best of you. Sleep with her best friend I’m sure that’ll do. No. You’ve made it worse. Forgive and forget. That’s all you can do. Focus on you And remember these lonely days do get better.  Your heart will slowly be put back together. Better than ever. It’s crazy what the magic of a Broken heart can do. Gain new perspectives and welcome a brand new you.