I do watch only telugu or hindi movies, and try to relate to the drama, social, and humour in this. Malathi never watches anything indian, and only english or american and she insisted I too do the same. She said I will be able to relate to the current trend and the place where we are living london

I watched shyam singha roy, not sure why but some scenes really stuck with me.. and the way nani depicted them is really good. some times normal things make an extra ordinary impact. not sure why. I have been watching brahmi and sunil comedy scenes and yes they do make me laugh but not really. its like I know whats next and am not enjoying. Its not the scenes/movies, its my mental state if this is calm then we do enjoy even normal thing. if mental state is bad then even if I spend millions I cant enjoy.

since last 5 yrs, hardly ever I have looked into myself, my face, my physical appearance, or anything. not that Im going for a date or anything like that , but I didnt really care about myself. however possible I presented myself in office and didnt bother what colleagues say or think. last 2 yrs sitting in home because of Covid belly grew quite big. even eating food is tough, ive to use antacid tablets, and gastric tablets etc.

ఎంత అవసరమో అంత కన్నా ఎక్కువ ఇంకా ఎక్కువ , ఎంత ఎక్కువ అంటే జబ్బు చేస్తే అంత ఎక్కువ తింటున్నా అన్న మాట

It is not just food, its about everything else in life, be it money, clothes, and the comforts we take. this body doesn't see much difference whether it is 100rs or 1lakh or 10 lakh, the clothes will serve the same purpose. same goes for food. its the same rice and dal I love.

weekend is finished, and every moment malathi is blaming me for getting covid onto her. I can see myself in my dads shoes and he was hospitalized after covid and because of steroids given he got heart attack and died. I was wondering what will happen with me, but its not the physical body, mentally he accepted and is not enjoying to live and so physically whatever is being done he didnt care. 

covid is a time doctors got opportunity to extract money and same time experiment with patients and use whatever they feel like, no one questions and its all valid during pandemic. 

pandemic, war and these kind of situations are gruesome and evil wins over.