Can I feel the thrill of the actual phyisical experience being given me?... I have... I can... on many occasions... feel the truth of my desire whom is God's word... I have patience... I feel totally assured...If it seems long then wait... for it is sure and will not be late...I feel grateful before it is seen in the world... I am letting go of all the residual memories of old... revised memory brings reward that human beings such as myself really want... the younger reigns... doubt has been exposed as the devil whom never had a form... pushed back to fantasy... my confidence overwhelms doubt with actual substance that I cannot deny... doubt has been muted... my Faith stronger than the illusory phantoms of the world... which is experience in the flesh both the wanted experience as well as unwanted each the spectre of immagination... I can easily have any illusion I desire... I need only be attentive to my wanted ... even my known experience which I do not force... but witness without interference.... from old paradigm... without the former belief... that I am "alone"... With me God creates this world of dreams that I have dreamt... I know my life is full of God's love, perfection, abundance, wealth, happiness, wisdom, all these desires becoming fact to heal the injuries of old beliefs... to be that great and fruitful servant of God... to be that light unto the world .... to be me here now, emmiting the vibration of salvation into all in my awareness... healing falls from every direction... I am floating in a sea of God's healing love... golden liquid light... I am never to be a victim again having taken responsibility for every moment of my life... God has lifted me from the bondage of incarnate form... to be free is to know God, I know God has called me to these deeper waters... I walk out upon that water... no one on earth is able to keep me from my union with God, as my union with God has always been... I decree that anyone in any State of awareness can see and feel the light of Christ eminating from me... I have chosen this day to be with God, and this day has no end... I have chosen this hour to be with God, this hour has become the endless day I dwell with God within... no power on earth is able to stop my Christ concioussness... in total perfection my life grows in self percivied value... in significance that I alone understand for me... yes I have jettisoned the old weights that kept me submerged... now they lay upon the bedrock of my belief and hold down themselves and those like them, from me... for all my beliefs are pushing greater life into being... all my belief is a eternal worshipping of God, which is the true belief in him... true belief in God brings perfect expirence... perfect expirence that forever remains with me as God clearly making all my dreams come true... which God has always done... but it's true that it took some time to practice and use God's power wisely... to fully realize that there is no God seperate from self and it's true that momentum had tested patience... but in the end it is clear that only I delayed my own desires fullfilment...then it was my belief that I was seperate by way of appearance in this world...now I see there is no seperation and all truly is one, though incarnate mind cannot know it... I am responsible... if I can rightly see the truth of this responsibility... I can see that the continual acceptance that I created the wanted and the unwanted expirence... always without exception... I am responsible for my own moments, the premise ... having fully taken that responsibility has been no hardship... indeed deep fully deflated wanting, into relief... a sweet relief... a deep stillness like sleep but not sleep... as gleeful rejoicing and warm pleasent phyisical feelings in my phyisical chest... literally in or near phyisical heart...undoing any damage there... healing... wholeness... in mind... healing my "aspects" of self... all "aspects" dramatically improved... this is a demonstration of absolute power to me by God within me... my phyisical circumstances... the people around me... in transformation so dramatic I cannot deny that it "has happened"... and I did not do anything in this world to bring it about... that is a mystery, a power absolute over all "others", indeed there be not "others" ...but, all that is ...is but that one power... in this truth... is great difficulty for the mind of man... and indeed a sword of decision, cleaving meat from bone is brought by the immagination... whom is Jesus Christ... and the world knows him not... I cleave the meat from the bone... I die daily... yet I do not die... I am transformed by the renewing of the spirit of my mind... filling my very self full of success, thrill of victory... it becomes a totally natural expectation... just as I expect the Sun to rise at dawn... rejecting all else but success and gain within my world of experience transformed without phyisical action, ... though that illusion will persist in the carnal minds of men... I know the true cause... and I am found... never to be lost again... truly salvation not of the body, but salvation of this self... I was born into believing is me is this self... while here .... this is no "saving" of your phyisical form... this is an everlasting life outside the world I now believe I am in... I need no phone, no internet... no society... I need to assistance from men... I need no world or incarnate dramas of "good and evil"... I merely become awareness... expanded far beyond feeble human limitation... this world is a prison, the body's a straight jacket once the freedom you will taste quenches your parched throat and you know it's significance and the false lights of Money, Fame, Power fade to the bitter poisons they truly are... when able to see all effect, as effect and know true cause... and deliberately choose the greatest cause the greatest effects... this is a process of becoming better and making clear to all others that indeed I am now fully concious of how I am causing this shared experience between us... with practice ...I pour out the healing balm of truth and it's real freedom upon this world... I bring the good and benificial into view and allow it such support and nurturing that goodness and benificial supportive distance permeates my freedom to be able to see that all true form is within myself and all others ...this freedom, this solution to all dilemma... is within us each and needs no words, or books or blogs... no churches or tithes of Ceasers coin... it needs nothing... it is you that had that feeling of want... many cascading ephinies that demonstrated my clear responsibility for all that is. To be clear about what I really want ... leading me into simply having these deliciously lavish feelings of contentment and fullfiment... without phyisical evidence for the feelings... or for no reason if you will I feel excellent and if I am very diligent in observance... then I notice... the unmistakable link between my "dominant-mood" and success, failure... results... if I am wise and have true ambition... I shall endeavor with all my strength, to choose at all moments better than the best I know... and in a dreamlike, expirence of fairytale successes... the scoffers continue scoffing and the wise are silently, wise as serpents and as harmless as doves... I shed the skin of the past completely... a feat most humans will not consider... winners doing these "thing's" that others will not... though do not be persuaded by another to act on their behalf in the name of that little popular catch phrase... the fool exploits the world turns into how most see it now... the wise transfigure it into heaven... the fool will see no change, for the change is entirely within the self... but me that self knows from "where" I came... and if all these fine people could see from where I came, a miracle would be declared... a mercy is this inability for humans to "read each others minds" and all humans whom behave as though they can.. all are miserable as they are certain of their guess in what someone else is thinking... so I know I cannot read minds... certain actually... so I have much less a load to bear in life than most... I really have no awareness of others thought... indeed it has manifested as me not noticing others... I pay very little attention to others as though someone not yet met shall arrive... yes indeed... God is all people and that is what shall happen... an arrival of a new person in life... or an arrival of great change... I actually cannot even surmise as to how it will happen... but I am happy and expectant to a natural, causualness or blase' certainty... it is a fact that I have it not a want hope dream guess or scheme... and so I go seeing much less value in the world's "experts"... experts and masters are completely useless... if I use them for my own purpose it is fine... but for me they are no different than any laborer...in a certainty and confidence ... I will be percivied as arrogant... indeed why spend a moment with the others point of view?... what people think is none of my business as is the value of all their unsolicited advice or opinions... for all that static noise, I have nothing my attention invested in the opulent kingdom of my own internal heaven... as the cup runneth over my world has shown me this reflection of my certain gut feelings.... my expectations are more powerful than I had once thought... these many blessings of my life... these are manufactured within myself by my speech and thought... both weaving the physical world before me, though I would not venture to say how... I am capable of whole-heartedly believing in what it is that I want... all I need do is feel what it is I want... and then witness its arrival... all I need do is feel what it is how it feels when I have it... in immagination the vision... even the feeling of the object, or the sound of the triumphant victory... it is vivid construction that brings the deepest of Faith, certainty that you are able to be that positive force in the world is the foundation of all power here, as we are creational we align our state of awareness into whichever desire more elegantly and exuberantly with grace and benifit to all... as all my ways are peace... I take no phyisical action I merely recieve the circumstance, object and experience of 76x4000, my own personal formula for worldly wear-withall ... and my own alone... others are choosing ....in ignorance or they are aware that they are responsible and no one else... has wrought the wonders I behold and how petty it would be to feel none of this massive gratitude... so much fullfilment... Grace is become more than ever before... better than I have ever known... in my attempt to describe God... in my desire to express this wonder, I find now words or my capacity to use them inadequate to hold in stark relief, and thereby clarity this expression of God's intent for me, as this world is of many, many seeming individual forms... my thoughts on God seem only to dissect and multiply... incapable of the awesome understanding of the great mystery... Faith indeed is immaginations bedrock... Faith upholding all that is ... concioussness has its process... I am this psychological interpretation of my awareness of perfection... beauty is seen and felt within... I am feeling beauty all around and through me... all by faith my fortune is... my wealth is... my happiness... wisdom... health.. abundance and love all is... now... my own... as what is my own has come by claim alone... by decree... I am enough... I am what is sufficient before those unseen things are seen... from within all that is has come and peace is upon me... I should do well to find the end of words and be still... knowing that I am God... to trust that I am well even beyond life, beyond the drama here on earth my affairs are well managed... well in good hand... my growing faith here in shadow life illuminating the mystery for me... understanding in the knowledge that comes through right perception... through persistent practice of imposing perfection upon myself alone... the world that surrounds me becomes the perfection I know I see... choice of how to feel about and believe in the carnal expirence slowly programming the subconcios... as I am subconsciously awarene,co am consciously aware that I have brought outrageous fortune upon myself... by faith this fortunes weight burdened my vaults own floors... and brought music to the empty vast halls and rooms... to my delight, I am great... but Father within whom is greater than I... bestowed my fortune and title upon me... I bestow this everlasting life upon them whom take it... for you need no permission from any other humanbieng... you are able to confer rulership upon yourself... I do what ought be done, and change myself so that others may change... this change comes in either direction we choose and all know the real feeling, sensations of these deadly dreams of good and evil... our power makes a way to be the result... a now that came from within myself has erupted upon the screen of space and becomes my expirence... my life... going through its many scenes and chapters, finds me allowing this great pretending thinly veild as real life, and immagination as the solid substance and true ... where is truth? But in this mind as all else is... mind not necessarily of flesh... but mind as awareness ... as concioussness all that is in it..... dancing these same greater harmonies within but untouched by the dreams of men... as the dreams emerge out of it... made of the same concioussness that awakens and knew it dreamt... so all these moments are memory and nothing more... to a new victory of certain importance that must be by logic over all other importance... not as a tyrant... as a lover... as a lover I speak daily to myself and prosper... I am that elusive spark that all seek after... to be aware is to be in the action of creating an alignment with my desires fullfilment and living in that feeling... I cannot doubt the feeling and I am not surprised when it becomes clothed in incarnate form... yet Faith grows overwhelming this world... yet continued desires of greatness I know not yet of... God has no limitations... all is already a solidified fact of perfect wisdom... my pleasure is the universe's obsession... as no one is burdened by my presence... I need no other outside myself to know that I am already fullfilled by God... already whole as his presence is within... radiating without... this dross falling away as I burned in firey furnaces... these few things are the purity of value and written within my secret heart only God knows of... a fortress that needs no defense is open and empty... a nursery and nurturing sanctuary now mine without price... without cost... my old fortress of war converted to this fine estate of peace and prosperity... it was done within myself as a choice to live... and to live I must love and to live I must be able to dry those tears and teach the way to fishing the eternal waters of divine fortune... so being rich is being inexhaustible in finance in comfort then I walk forward to find a new day in this bloom of wonders subtle tender beauty... I need not consider the verse or curves of its pedals... I witness perfect expressions from this higher intelligence... myself in the ordered assembly of God's imagination as foolishness in the world could be constructive here in heaven... so by grace there go I, the grace is made clear within self and taken... love is greatest of all, and so I feel love making these many characters seemingly seperate become aspects of the same mind... for that repetition is the foundation of my real strength the world does not know... as my disciples have disciplined my mind... perception changes... and so seems the "world" to change...