It's always darkest before the dawn, if this is true... my dawn is here... as I sit here tapping out these symbols from the bench of physical form... I gather a greater strength of imagination... to overcome the current dark dream, I am in the full flowing abundance of my inner world as the outer world is collapsed in total lack and want... very much the opposite of my desire...stranded in a foreign country with no money and my visa about to expire...and there seems no one able to help from the embassy to my own family and friends...today I must face this all in physical reality I keep close the peace within...its all that is with me now...perhaps this is my end... I am to vanquish these fears...a greater ability to know my within... and create my vividly rich vision... living fully from the end... which is the wholeness of a realization... a complete understanding, that I am creating my physical experience from within... this creation is the law... this law is perfect and cannot be transgressed by man... he uses this perfect divine law in ignorance or understanding... there is no physical causation, the physical experience is an effect of the law... belief in cause is confused...and the promise is so excitingly wonderful beyond the salvation in the law ... I think constantly of the promise and it's realization which will bring me into the next age, this world of tears transcended eternally... but for me the law is sufficient to guide, me... instruct me into the promise made to myself so seemingly long ago... my faith must be sufficient for the law to cause the desire I seek fulfilled in my life to be experienced ... faith is foolishness to the sleeping minds of the world... and so I claim foolishness to this slumbering crowd that is surrounding me... I am eternally a fool without any "wisdom" this world believes in in its great suffering and manifold horrors... I am abandoning the world's light and so called wisdom for my own inner vision... I am not letting go of faith in my dream fulfilled... it is already done...I am living from the feeling of the fulfilled desire... I am in a certainty of my desire already being an experience in this world as it is... the inner knowing is how all my life comes about in the physical incarnate world... I have been practicing this for three months, and now everything in my physical world has collapsed... my bank card frozen... homeless in one of the world's most dangerous cities... absolutely destitute with no seeming way out... and no one really seems to care
