Today I had a really manic day, my washer broke, I needed to dash out and get clothes for my upcoming holiday and I finally sat down at half 8 in the evening to write my blogs only to find that I really didn’t want to.
That got me thinking about Blogging in general, when I first started blogging in 2014, blogging was popular but nowhere near the influencer-heavy, marketing machine that it has become today. There was a rawness and something exciting about sharing your opinions online and feeling like people liked you enough and cared enough to listen.
For the past few years NinaRossBeauty has been a huge part of my life, it’s become a hobby which has evolved into a routine however, I’m not the same person I was four years ago.
When I started blogging I was in University, I had a lot of free time on my hands, a passion for beauty and most importantly a true love of Writing. I still adore writing above everything else and the passion for beauty is still there however, I’m lacking on time.
Back then I was late teens with a lot to learn, lots of free time and the exciting thrill of Student Finance. Fast-forward and I now work full time in a job that requires a lot of time, attention and dedication. I work more than 35 hours a week, I now juggle renting my own home (and keeping on top of the chores), a seven year long relationship, keeping in touch with friends and family as well as trying to make enough time for me. Suddenly, my blog seemed to morph from a hobby into another thing that I needed to just “get done” on a weekend and I feel that the enjoyment has started to fade.
Being a blogger is incredibly tough, Social Media and FOMO makes you think that you must be successful and working on huge projects and making lots of money to fit into the whole influencer led world. Every click, like and comment comes from hours of writing, editing photos, plugging yourself on multiple social media platforms and constantly being part of a discussion, but this can quickly spiral out of control.
I’ve seen blogging friends be the victim of some seriously awful incidents due to being publicly accessible online (I’ve even had my own fair share of it!), I’ve also seen people turn away from their real-life friends and family to focus on connecting with faceless people via Twitter all for the sake of maintaining and image and keeping engagement rising.
I don’t hate blogging or the blogging industry – far from it but over time the time and dedication needed to keep my blog current has slowly been eating into my personal life cutting into important time with my loved ones and time for myself. A lot of my closest blogging friends have also slowly dropped off reducing their posts or quitting their blogs entirely so it’s become much lonelier too!
So where do we go from here? Well, this blog has been a huge part of my life so I’m going to take a break to start with and see how I feel from there. I might find myself missing blogging immensely or I may find that it’s time to let my blog reach its natural end and pursue different creative outlets and writing projects – that’s the beauty of real life, we never know what is around the corner!
I’ve going to finally, log out and spend my weekend relaxing, more on this subject next week!
Thanks for reading!