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Sweet Surprise I Could Get Used To

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So today my son has to get an EEG which means he couldn't get much sleep. Which means, no one has gotten much sleep. After caffeinating a shit ton, staying up til 11 and then not sleeping well due to the overcaffeination and getting up at 5 am, I pretty much was a zombie this morning. Which as a mom, I just can't stand. So, I do the only logical thing one can do once coffee isn't really working- I get on Youtube. This leads me on a Watch Mojo binge. The subject: Pop/Punk bands. I start in on top 10's of bands and songs from from those bands. This launches me down an emotional memory lane where the soundtrack of my life was the sound of my repeatedly breaking heart and the songs that perfectly captured this. It made me realize how far I've come where I just don't listen to that kind of music any more because I can't relate any longer. And while I could easily pull up whole albums, songs or even just some lyrics that seemed to be written specifically for me to use as a band aid for my heart to continue making horrible decisions; I wanted to revel in my happiness.

Here are the songs that make me think of my husband:

This is the first song that comes to mind. When I heard this song, I cried and realized the change that has happened where I no longer relating to sad heart break songs but love songs. I've gone through a lot in my life with pretty much everyone I've ever encountered letting me down and fucking me over in major ways. Naturally, this didn't make me want relationships of any kind. But in so many ways, Devaughn was and still is the only exception.

He IS the answer. To everything. When they ask me who I love- Devaughn is the answer :) This is just one of those songs where it's like, wanna know how he makes me feel and what he means to me? Just listen to this song. The lyrics say it all.

This is one of my all time favorite songs. I've noticed that when I like a song that I don't currently relate to, that at some point in my life, that song will be the story of my life. This song, I loved. I loved it so hard. Never knowing what it was like to feel like this towards anyone, I just assumed this song was the exception that I loved it because Foo Fighters are fucking awesome. Now, I listen to it and a face comes to mind, I get goosebumps, my heart starts singing along. Dave singing "If everything could ever feel this real forever. If anything could ever be this good again. The only thing I'd ever ask of you, you gotta promise not to stop when I say when" feels like a direct quote from me to my husband.

Specifically the first verse of this song is literally what I feel everyday of my life.

This was my anthem a little before we got married.  I was unwrapping myself from bad habits I had gotten used to and learning what love really is supposed to be like. He wasn't breaking me down, he was lifting me up. I mean I just felt loved, secure, positivity and happiness. This was legit the first time in my entire life I've felt those things.

These are just the ones that immediately came to my head. I know there's more and may update. But since we're approaching our 5 year wedding anniversary, I wanted to also just add: Thank you baby. You are the only thing I always look forward to everyday and easily the best part of my day. I love you with everything inside of me. You're the Frye to my Leela :-*

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Sweet Surprise I Could Get Used To


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