Kerry Katona has revealed her infamous drug battle began when she was just 14, after her mother Sue gave her speed while pretending the substance was sweets.
The 37-year-old former Atomic Kitten star gave a candid talk at The Hygrove, a new treatment centre, on Thursday, as she helped unveil the new and exclusive sanctuary in Gloucester during which she candidly discussed her addictions.
Having previously revealed details of her addiction, she opened up about her first dabble in Drugs, which occurred while she was in foster care and visiting her mum, who administered the stimulant during a trip to the pub.
Tough: Kerry Katona has revealed her infamous drug battle began when she was just 14, after her mother Sue gave her speed while pretending the substance was sweets
Kerry decided to bravely open up about her own battle in a speech as she urged people suffering to speak out, which she broadcasted live on Instagram.
The mother-of-five has always been candid about her tricky relationship with her mother after she was placed in foster care from a young age, however during her supervised visits to see her mother she fell into the grasps of addiction.
Revealing the start of her woes, she said: ‘I know my mum’s watching. I’m very proud of my mum and who she is today but my addition started back when I was 14. I was in a foster home and I was only allowed to see my mum via supervised visits.
‘I’m the only child. I went down to the pub on a Sunday, as one does from being up North, and I remember my mum going to the pub, she was with a woman at the time.
‘Didn’t know any better’: Having previously discussed details of her addiction, she opened up about her first dabble in drugs, which occurred while she was in foster care and visiting her mum (pictured in 2012), who administered the stimulant during a trip to the pub
‘My mum became a brief lesbian. And I walked into the toilet, I was 14, and she had this bag of white powder. I said: “Mum, what’s that?” She said: “It’s sherbet” before signalling that her mother dipped her finger in the bag and put it into Kerry’s mouth.
‘I went home to my foster parents and I must have been awake for 24 hours… it was speed. For me that was normality. Every weekend we’d go out… and this is not me blaming my mum or me saying: “My mum’s a bad mum.”
‘My mum did not know any different. Nor did I and, as I got older and older, it went from doing speed and then I met a boy and he introduced me to cocaine, I must have been about 15, 16.
‘I was a really, really good kid but when I became an adult it just kind of went downhill from there, really.’
Open and honest: The 37-year-old former Atomic Kitten star gave a candid talk at The Hygrove, a new treatment centre, on Thursday, helping unveil the new and exclusive sanctuary in Gloucester during which she candidly discussed her addictions
Honest and open Kerry revealed she was so normalised to drug use that she deemed people who did not use them ‘snobs’: ‘For me, people who didn’t do drugs, were snobs. I thought people who didn’t do drugs were snobs.
‘It was so surreal, until I realised, going through therapy, I thought: “Oh, well, that boyfriend does steroids but that’s the norm, isn’t it.” And they’d go: “No, Kerry, that isn’t normal behaviour. Not everybody does cocaine, not everybody does ecstasy, not everyone takes speed”‘.
The star shares daughters Molly, 14, and Lilly-Sue, 13, with ex-husband Brian McFadden; Heidi, eight and Max, seven with ex Mark Croft; and 22-month-old DJ with husband George Kay, who she split from last year.
Her 2006 split from Brian appeared to shock the star into realising she had a problem, having moved to Ireland for him – yet returning home left her struggling.
Struggles: Revealing the start of her woes, she said: ‘I’m very proud of my mum and who she is today but my addition started back when I was 14. I was in a foster home and I was only allowed to see my mum via supervised visits (pictured with Sue in 2005)
She went on: ‘I think it was probably after my first marriage breakdown. When I met my first husband, Brian, he came over to England and as far as I was concerned, he was my knight in shining armour.
‘Unfortunately they don’t exist. I just get a t**ser wrapped in tinfoil. He took me from England and took me over to Ireland and my life changed! I couldn’t believe that I went to a nightclub in Ireland called Lilly’s and I stayed up until four o’clock in the morning without taking any drugs!
‘I was like, ‘Oh my God! I can’t believe this is happening!’ Just from having a really nice time, a really good time. I was buzzed off it, it was absolutely great.
‘Unfortunately the w**ker left me… I’m joking, we’re on good terms… And that meant I had to move back over to England but, me going back from where I started from, you lie down with dogs, you’re going to get fleas.
Hard times: Her 2006 split from Brian appeared to shock the star into realising she had a problem, having moved to Ireland for him – yet returning home left her struggling
‘I think for me, after I’m A Celebrity… Get Me Out of Here!, my fame became so high, and being married to someone in Westlife and, when I did go over to England, all my friends around that time, they were all into the drugs.
‘And I wanted to prove, I’ve not changed. I’m still ‘our Kez’, I’m up for a good time. So I’m buying all my friends coke and trying to get people to love me. I never grieved Brian which made me chase that first buzz, that first line, and it just went on and on and on.’
Her relationship with Mark proved a crucial element of her drug use, as she claims the former taxi driver was also Sue’s drug dealer.
She said: ‘My second husband, with him being my mum’s dealer, I only married him because I thought I was going to get the drugs for free.
‘Not that I wanted to take the drugs. I was taking it more and more because I wanted him to stop me and show that he loved me but it didn’t work out, he had me where he wanted.’
Troubled: Atop her addiction, Kerry suffered a host of Mental Health Problems, including a battle with bipolar which she revealed left her suicidal
Atop her addiction, Kerry suffered a host of mental health problems, including a battle with bipolar which she revealed left her suicidal.
During an infamous appearance on This Morning in 2008, she was seen to slur her words and appear dazed, which led to hosts Phillip Schofield and Holly Willoughby quizzing her over using drugs prior to the interview – yet she put her trouble down to her medication for bipolar.
She said: ‘I was on lots of bipolar medication. I’m sure you can remember the infamous interview on This Morning. If I was sitting on This Morning with my limb missing… Because you can’t see it, the family and the people surrounding the person suffering mental health problems or addiction don’t understand it.
‘Saying to me: “Get up out of your bed and get over yourself, Kerry,” is like telling somebody in a wheelchair to get up and walk. That’s how severe my depression had actually got. I was having suicidal thoughts… don’t suffer in silence!’