DANNY Cipriani is no-longer fighting his ego and losing sleep over his England exile.
The Premiership's bad-boy fly-half has found an inner peace over his Test torment.
Despite making his Red Rose debut 10 years ago and playing some of the best rugby of his life right now, he still has just 16 caps to his name at the age of 31.
After being axed for the autumn internationals, candid Cipriani has not given up all hope.
Asked if he felt the door was still open, he said: "I don’t know. Maybe, maybe. I hope so. I've got to keep playing, putting myself in the best position.
"I laugh because every question always comes back to the England environment, and I get why it does, but I’m just loving my time at Gloucester. I don’t sit at home worrying about it.
"I’m not doing it for ‘self’ purposes. If I put all my efforts into making sure Gloucester are moving forwards and if I put all my efforts into becoming the best I can be, that ‘self’ stuff comes with it.
"If I’m just thinking: ‘If I do this and get player of the month…’ it becomes a little bit self-obsessed.
"I’m enjoying that mindset rather than just trying to prove people wrong.
"It can be a battle of your ego, because you're fighting as opposed to being at peace and just moving forward. I feel very at peace in my day to day life, let alone on the field.”
Cipriani's off-field crimes are well-known and there is simply not enough space in a tabloid newspaper to print his booming rap-sheet.
Most recently he was arrested and banged up in a Jersey cell after a booze-fuelled pre-season nightclub incident.
But there are plenty of personal playing accolades to balance out his offences, too.
He scooped this season's first Gallagher Premiership player-of-the-month award after starring for Gloucester.
And tonight he will lead his club into their huge European Champions Cup clash at home to Exeter Chiefs.
Cips said: "It's been the same story for six years, hasn't it? I will still go out and do the best I can. So hopefully Gloucester are getting the best version out of me."
Cipriani is old enough, tough enough and wise enough to know that Eddie Jones has put all his playmaker eggs in the baskets of Owen Farrell and George Ford.
It was the same story under Stuart Lancaster and Martin Johnson, who both felt that for all his magical skills, Cipriani was a risky pick on the world stage.
Still, there is no bad blood from a player who Red Rose fans are crying out to see wearing their shirt.
Cipriani said: "If I’m ever a coach, and you’ve got two or three players in a position and they’re all playing well, sometimes you’ve got to go on a feeling. And if you’re not on that coach’s feeling, you’ve got to accept it.
"There are times when you can turn to a player and say you’ve got to do X, Y and Z. Then you go and do X, Y and Z. I remember when I was younger, Shaun Edwards would say you’ve got to ask specific questions.
"I laugh because every question always comes back to the England environment, and I get why it does, but I’m just loving my time at Gloucester. I don’t sit at home worrying about it."
"So if I wasn’t getting picked at Wasps I would go to the coach – Warren Gatland or Ian McGeechan, and I would say what do I need to do?
"They give you a list, you go and do it, you play in your next game, you make sure you do it. And if you get picked, great, that’s him staying true to his word. And if he gives you other things to work on, you keep working on them.
"It’s not like England had a bad autumn or anything like that. I thought some of the rugby they played was excellent. They put Australia to the sword. So you’ve just got to accept it.
"I get it, and I guess it’s nice the question is still being asked, because I am playing half-decent, so I’ll keep trying to play half-decent still.
"It's not been hard because I have never taken any position for granted. You just try and show your character and resilience.
"And if I am driving the club. . . playing well for Gloucester. . . whilst also seeing other players getting better. . . and as a group we are challenging for the top, say we get out of our Champions Cup group, that will all mean a lot more to me than this self feeling I would get for playing for England."
Cipriani has rock-star status both on and off the pitch, so his arrival was huge news for sleeping-giant Gloucester this summer.
The raucous cider-fuelled fans in Kingsholm's Shed have been singing his name since day one.
And Cipriani knows how much European and domestic success would mean for the die-hard, rugby-mad town.
He added: "Kingsholm and The Shed is probably the most well-known group of fans.
"When you look at this town and the message we have – it is up here on the wall: ‘Play to Inspire’.
"That is something Johan Ackermann talks about and it is a very valid message for somewhere like Gloucester.
"Rugby is the main sport in this town and there are so many people here who go to work just so they can go and watch a game at the weekend.
"It is down to us to let them walk away with someone to smile and be happy about.
"When you go out there and play, you’re playing for a bigger picture than just yourself.
"You're playing for the town and that message is something we really believe in. Hopefully that shows in what we’re doing.
"Rugby is the main sport in this town and there are so many people here who go to work just so they can go and watch a game at the weekend."
"This squad is in a great position to really try and challenge the top two. That is what everyone is doing; chasing the top two.
"Our message has mostly been about playing to inspire, and that gives us a lot as a group.
"There are a lot of things we can do in the community, but the main thing is to play well on a Friday night, Saturday or Sunday.
"When you walk out, there are so many people waiting outside the stadium, in the rain, wind, whatever it might be, because the town just loves it.
"There’s the chippy across the road. . . you could do a movie about this place if you really broke it down. It’s pretty special.
"We’ve just got to be excited and grateful to be in that position."
Now Cherry and White fans are hoping star man Cipriani adds to his blockbusting highlight reel to edge them closer to the knock-out stages against the Chiefs.