I finally watched. It’s a very good synopsis – some things confirmed what i have felt and seen – and learned some new info too. It’s funny – in my purging process recently, I saw I was always at some level “awake”. In one journal entry, early 90’s, I was talking about humanity in general – how alone I felt – different – how scary that felt for me overall (feeling like I could not trust anyone but myself – how lonely/disconnected it felt for me to feel no one truly had my back) – feeling I was surrounded by, and I quote, “robots and clowns” – and the guilt I felt about holding that judgment/thought – but it was something I could not shake – that knowing deep within.
