i no longer know where i am. this isn’t late summer. this isn’t even early fall. it is raining here and there is literally nothing showing up on the radar and all of the forecaster’s are calling for 70 and sun today and yet it is hovering at 60. every day they change the forecast. the sun and supposed warmth keeps getting pushed back. if this is how it is to be in these final whatever’s – days – months – here – AT LEAST GIVE US SUNSHINE AND WARMTH!
all is changing and we are to just go along with this (that isn’t feeling ok w/me). what about for those of us who garden? those gardens are molding and rotting.
those of us who rely on wood for heat – we are being pressured now to buy wood a good 6 weeks before we plan on having to do that. we only have enough for food now. wood? there’s also a light needing replaced in the kitchen and the dishwasher repair. as i said – the needs are at a 10 and the ability to meet them – a 6 and getting more challenging. the water bill jumped up again as did my cable bill.
what is the point in any of this other than greed and control continues to carry on. WHERE IS OUR HELP? right?!
i have no intention to be a part of a creation that “ends” like this. not one bit. freedom here? my arse.
i “got” a feel earlier today. the separation is real here. temporary (hence “illusion”) – however it is very real while in this energy space. we can all have a vast array of experiences but being alone in our feels – from our joys to our pains – we are alone in them. that is why it feels so lonely – when we get real. perhaps that can unite us – that experience alone. at least be more gentle with one another.
it is understandable to me now that Rose calls “home” – heaven.
so……..obviously my mood is low. energy too. fighting off this cold continues so that makes experiencing here more challenging – lost a week of schooling so far. this is a virus passed along to us as my child played at a friend’s house and they (again) failed to let her or myself know one of their children had been Sick. (WHO DOES THAT? seriously WHO lets others into their home if someone is sick without saying something?) so….my girl got sick – then i did. no more playing anywhere until i have fully ascertained all are well and have been well. i am done with that.
done with ALL that causes any harm. my Love and gratitude to all of you who support me and what i do. that and love from my little tribe out here keep me going.
hear me roar for i am roaring fiercely today.