I've always been poor at Social interaction, anxiety, uneasiness, etc. which has led to awkwardness and the inability to know what to do in certain situations.
Thanks to meditation, I have become aware of the problems in my Behavior, but the thing is I need some form of behavior to replace the bad ones I possess currently, such as feeling extremely uneasy when talking to others, not reacting at all to small talk, forcing reactions that feel so fake it actually hurts, disgust at small talk, and really rather anxious schizotypal behavior..
I am, I would say, a naturally nice person, but I really don't know what to change my bad social behaviours into. I was never taught how to act, how to speak, how be dignified in one's being, so now that I see my problems, I have no clue what to do with the information.
What am I supposed to do with this information? Being present is all well and good, but currently for me this just means not reacting, which is all well and good, but a lack of reactions does not really go very well in modern day society, it gives one the appearance of a schizoid, a loner, someone who looks down on others.
Pls help :)
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