Something Weird happened to me last night, it sounds weird, but I was in bed and I was thinking, who am I, what am I, and I was like, well I am not my heart, I am not my lungs, muscles, thoughts, conciousness, brain, hair, these are all just an accumulation, am I simply a small spark of energy created by all these things, an obervatory? Am I the awareness of my awareness?
Then i sort of felt something at the top of my head inside my skull and then Mentally I identified that as me, i then started trying to focus on it to explore it, but when I did I heard a sound which made me scared, unfocused, like a stone door slam in my brain and I lost it and felt normal again but startled... but then I focused at the top of the thing again and it was like I was getting suffocated and losing my body. I heard a little roar and felt strangled mentally in my neck like my head could pop off, but I was so curious what this point was in my skull. I was getting closer and closer to it mentally, but the closer I got the more disconnected I felt to my body, I was scared that I would hear this door slam again because it was loud but I kept getting closer to this thing mentally and then I felt free with euphoria but disconnected from my body, it slipped my mind that I might die, so I remember trying to move my hand and I could not feel the movement but felt it rub against my stomach a little bit, if I had to visualise this point I would describe it as a white ball with spikes around it, this thing was giving me ectasy, I was disconnected, feeling great and then that's all I remember, it wasn't a dream because I remember I was in my bed phasing at some points, sort of blurring and dizzy mentally, weird right? You don't gotta believe me because it's weird but it happened, but I was wondering if anyone knows what this is or has had a similar experience. Thank you if you got this far
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