My grandpa’s a creep, but he’s a really nice guy. He says the grossest things about more; compliments my eyes, says the typical “you’re so mature for your age” (gag), tells me that I’m ‘the most beautiful girl he’s ever met’.
I’m 16. This has been going on since I was around 11 or 12. From when I was 12 until I was around 14 or 15, he made out with me whenever he saw me. I didn’t reciprocate, obviously, but my grandma was dying of cancer, and I felt bad for him. He never told me to hide what he was doing, either, no ‘our little secret’, so I was confused.
He’s really not a bad guy, and that’s not some stockholm syndrome talking. He’s actually a well-liked, nice, goofball person—someone nobody would expect this kind of thing from.
Nobody knows this happened save for my older brother, who I swore to secrecy.
He creeps me out, and though he never molested me or did anything awful, I hate being near him. I can’t seem to get over his awful, awful kissing from all those years ago.
And I still see him sometimes. I let him take me out to dinner, and I accept his inappropriate compliments with a cute smile. Why? Because he has a well-paying job. I’m getting him to buy me a car within the next few months because I know that I can.
It feels wrong because of how nice he is. He called me sexy once, when I was 12, but he’s never said it again. He doesn’t make perverted comments; just “romantic” ones. He once wrote me poetry, and I accepted it with a pretty, fake smile.
And I’m certain that it’s just me. I remembered fearing for a while that if I wasn’t here, he would do the same with my other cousins, or even sister, but even when I ignore him texts and don’t reply, he still only seems to want me. And I’ll use this to my advantage.
It’s slimy, what I’m doing, but it feels better than blackmailing him, an idea I had thought about a while back.
Last time I saw him, he told me that he just opened a college fund for me…
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