Twenty years ago, when I was at this prison I lived like a rabid animal. I was kept in a cell , completely naked. No bedding ...just me and concrete any my own dark thoughts and hostility for company and entertainment. Recreation was fighting with the guards, or being peppered sprayed, non lethal  stun grenades  or a good struggle with the screws , as you were naked with your "dangler" flopping all over the place and avoiding it being peppered sprayed, it burns like hell !!
So, my current daily regime is one I much more prefer... as I said when Mom says to mind your manners, that is what I do.
When I am escorted anywhere out of the cell, they use a 5 man escort and it is a total waste of manpower, but they do it because of my behaviors 20 years ago.  I cannot say I do not understand their extreme caution when dealing with me. When I left this prison 20 years ago, after a night of rioting with my cellmates. But, I am a much different man now. I will honor my word to my wife, mother and family and not engage unless I am under literal physical attack. I bet all these new guards watched the videos of me 20 years ago, then I was a world class idiot. Now, they tell me about their grandfathers or fathers telling them stories of my antics back then. I just shake my head and think to myself, what was I thinking ! I was an angry, hostile person with a mission, what that mission was? I wanted to be treated fairly not understanding my negative actions did not warrant that. My mindset and life is far better now , thanks to my wonderful support system and just plain growing up and maturing. Administration will transfer me to another state and I really do not care where I go as long as I get to see my Bella and mother and when they visit , I want it to be as comfortable as possible and for them to treat my loved ones with respect.  I also want to have the capabilities to work on my plans for troubled youth and continue develop a non profit organization and perhaps even a book to share my struggles and reach out to families and assist them with helping their loved ones steer away from a life I have led.