How I miss my dad so much :( He has passed away in August 24 2011 at 2.20 pm on the day where my step sister celebrated her birthday..It was kind of sad for her..I am sure she felt very sad. We were at the hospital on that day standing beside dad’s bed, hugging him, talking to him, telling him how much we love him while he was sleeping on coma..But I believe when people was on coma, the person is actually still be able to hear what people surround him/her talking..and could feel the hand’s touch, the kisses, etc although he or she cannot response it back..

My Dad Passed away two days before my second baby celebrated her first birthday :( unfortunately, I already ordered the birthday cake and wanted to celebrate it together at his house on August 26. But then on August 18, mom called us telling that dad was rushed to the hospital due to severe vomiting. Then dad stayed at the hospital until he passed away..

My dad is a very gentle man in the world. My dad never got crossed to us. Mom and Dad are the best romantic couple in the world for us. They always held hands each other while walking. Mom is still feeling depressed and she is in fact joining me on hypnotherapy session. We all miss dad so much. Dad passed away at the age of 84. A very lucky man who had adiabetic and had done a bypass surgery 20 years ago.

Sometimes, when I feel upset I always Dream of him. I saw him smiling proudly to me. Sometimes, I saw him a bit sad and I wish I could ask him why he is sad in my dream. Dad seems to come to me in my dream when I feel terrible, upset and stress. It looks like he wants to cheer me up. I always ended up crying when I woke up from that dream..

Now, I am in Jakarta. I have plenty of times to Visit dad’s Cemetery. I plan to visit him as often as I could. As I visited him last week, I bought a bunch of pretty roses, tube roses, jasmine and rose water. I arranged those pretty flowers on his burial and poured rose water to the grass covering his site. It is our tradition when we visit burial site.

I miss you so much dad..I guess I will see you again tonight in my dream..

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