2023-11-09 17:24
So, yes, I want(ed) to race again. But this is bigger than running a marathon.
One of the things that truly sucks about living with a so-called rare disease like sarcoidosis is you're invis… Read More
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2023-09-18 20:28
Even as it seemed elusive, I believed I would realize my dream someday. Well, someday is here Read More
2022-11-18 15:27
The weight of our impact and the pressures it brings are familiar to me. So I hold Professor Davis in so much love and light. I hope she is being well supported. I hope we all are, in the qu… Read More
2022-11-07 02:12
"Marrow tells stories of members of Peoples Temple, stories that have been mis-remembered, un-remembered, and mostly obscured from the historical record. You can find those stories here." Read More
2022-11-02 14:54
So, who were the people of Peoples Temple? What were their fears and aspirations? Where did they locate joy in their lives and what were their vices? Who and how did they love? I wrote to th… Read More
2022-09-23 15:29
"Grape is the sweetest betrayal.
There is no removing the stain
of it say moms everywhere &
even if kids choose it last,
they choose it, as loyal
to its sugar as any." Read More
2022-08-23 02:47
So let me try this: I wanted just to say that I homed your fuckshit in my belly so long that I have fertilized a field and they are some of the most vibrant colors. They could be weeds. And… Read More
2022-07-13 10:21
Originally posted on cindyhuyser: Background Thursday, July 14, 2022 7:15 p.m. to 9:00 p.m. Event Registration: https://www.eventbrite.com/e/bookwoman-second-thursday-poetry-and-open-mic-fea… Read More
2022-02-08 18:04
Heart Disease is the number one cause of death in America, and as is so often the case, women, poor people, and people of color are disproportionately affected. National Heart Month, designa… Read More
2022-01-05 22:32
As hard as it’s become to love my body through the challenge heart failure imposes on it (and if I’m honest before h.f.), I absolutely don’t not-love her. I do worry that s… Read More
2021-11-29 15:44
We have a social contract in which our measuring stick for harm is familiarity and this contract puts us all at risk.
Communities divest from perceived offenders (part of the premise of pri… Read More
2021-11-18 21:26
Every single one of these people had a navel and a name. They occupied space and time, somebody’s and eventually their own. A fact that is so simple it’s almost unremarkable exce… Read More
2021-10-23 17:32
“Your heart is not pumping like it should,” the cardiologist said. “You’re in heart failure. It’s amazing that you’re running at all.” He said her e… Read More
2021-09-14 19:11
In early 1979, when Eugene Smith returned “back to the world” from the Guyanese jungle, my father had made his return “back to the world” more than a decade before, f… Read More
2021-08-19 15:27
too long miles later &
I have sputtered like this
engine needing, I bet, to
tug the cables Read More
2021-07-22 01:15
For the first time in four years my ICD "delivered therapy," which I discovered days after "the event" when my electrophysiologist's nurse called to ask "if I was okay." Read More
2021-06-10 16:11
the lankiest one, voice on the verge
of collecting crushes, is making himself up
as he goes, a danger my dad’s admonitions
cannot prepare him for; will justify the conflation
of boy to… Read More
2021-04-13 12:02
there are ways of being alive that look nothing
like the somatic supposition opposite death.
To be dead is something else altogether Read More
2021-01-02 14:03
The cracks in my heart have not come
from bodies offered in the guise of honey;
haven’t shaken my hand seconds too long;
taken my eyes for gazing balls; my limbs for casualwear.
What p… Read More
2020-12-23 17:29
What you do know is that what the women said about you is true:
you are a cavernous hollow in whom no man can find his rightful end.
And who doesn’t want to end somehow? To plant a f… Read More
2020-11-01 13:28
Originally posted on The Fight and The Fiddle: Editor’s Note: While our usual editorial style uses poets’ last names on second reference, this essay intentionally breaks with tha… Read More
2020-10-22 21:04
It wasn't remembering at all but realizing--probably that's what I was doing, you know, that you are dead, and it felt like chewing foil Read More
2020-08-21 10:33
2020-07-01 15:47
Please consider your institution–university, library, non-profit invited to engage with us in readings, talks, and panels. Also, ORDER THE BOOK! revisitingtheelegy.org @blmelegy.org Read More
2020-05-05 18:48
Source: darlene anita scott Read More
2020-03-16 03:21
I am living with advanced heart failure. Yeah, yeah, yeah some of you are like “but I thought you were healing;” well, a test the other week shows regression. An additional and m… Read More
2020-02-24 00:17
Back in 2012, I wrote a Dear John letter to the brothers. My relationships with the Johns in my life were (and will always be I suppose) evolving, transitioning, ending. I’m a stubborn… Read More
2020-01-18 00:20
via Recent News Read More
2020-01-08 12:36
Good folks, give thanks–she is here! Follow her on Twitter @blmelegy and bookmark her website https://revisitingtheelegy.org/ to keep up with her travels now that she’s entered t… Read More
2019-06-22 13:18
I don’t think there is anyone who doesn’t want to belong to something or somebody. Not ownership belong to but be a part of belong to. Even me. I say even me because… Read More
2018-12-04 10:35
The disease has damaged my heart, but it doesn’t have to do any more damage if I can get proper treatment. Of course, proper treatment is expensive...
I need help, but since I don&rsq&hell…Read More
2018-04-28 14:33
Time and resources to work through a project to make it publishable/competitive is always gonna be hard to come by for most working class folks and creatives know and accept this as part of… Read More
2018-01-07 22:44
"Don’t misunderstand me. I believe in the power of poetry to heal and change but sometimes I am so tired of the atrocities in the world. One book of poems is just not enoug… Read More
2017-12-02 17:26
"A good girl: bright, perhaps a bit of an introvert, perhaps not romantically pursued or interested in the pursuit for these reasons. Of course, these traits are likely not all she is, but w… Read More
2017-10-19 17:40
2017 has been life affirming. I haven't taken y'all on the cardiomyopathy carousel much this year because technically it's all rather new; a little up and down like the carousel horsies; a… Read More
2017-08-24 01:19
Check out the full interview at 150FranklinGallery.com. Show opens October 6th (5 p.m.) at the 150 Franklin Street Gallery in Harrisonburg, VA with an artist talk at 6:30! See you ther… Read More
2017-07-05 23:00
What is white space that is not a canvas; offering agency and every possibility to whomever confronts it? It’s quiet and patient; generous; never pompous and clearly not greedy… Read More
2017-05-28 20:26
The aim of this lit magazine is to empower women, but it also aims to be completely inclusive in regards to applicants/contributors.
We love you. We’re not here to tell you to stay st… Read More
2017-05-20 14:20
I'll be reading poems from Marrow, my manuscript about the Peoples Temple, a congregation of Americans who emigrated to Jonestown Guyana and were coerced into suicide by their spiritual lead… Read More
2017-05-14 22:54
I see y'all whose do list is longer than your don'ts maybe feeling guilty; maybe feeling sentimental amnesia.
I see you all. And every time I look in a mirror I see my mama whether I like… Read More
2017-05-12 12:28
Talking to myself--especially when it becomes a lot of talk all of a sudden, always tells me there is something I'm trying to work out of my brain and especially out of my body. It's intere… Read More
2017-04-25 14:01
I’m only recently accepting the extent to which my physical body has been intrinsic to how I self-identify. The realization has come on the heels of a bunch m… Read More
2017-04-24 05:33
In no particular order and hardly close to exhaustive, here goes: Read More
2017-04-23 15:07
a donut had fallen in a rush to breakfast
its sticky footprint darkening and travelling
through every room, the cough following it Read More
2017-04-23 14:31
In a burned out city
that whispered from its ashes
willful forgetting would only salt
that richness; turn the fertilizing of it to Death Read More
2017-04-20 19:33
Ballad of Bridges Each one was familiar yet its peril new and desperate over water not deep enough to account for believing more in visions of mangle and gore only visions, af… Read More
2017-04-20 00:00
before I could swallow, choke,
introduce Your cancer into my feet or feelings
I found it Read More
2017-04-19 23:33
I’ll give you ears, proper timbre and tonality;
my full weight against your arm until it’s limp
and damp, pocked in a rash the shape of my locs Read More
2017-04-17 16:47
I’ve been trying to ignore the tug in my gut that has persisted since I first read about this story yesterday. It was the stark inhumanity of it for sure; the sheer violence;… Read More
2017-04-15 18:53
A woman’s worth is not in her vagina. A woman is worth more than her vagina. A vagina and a womb are not synonymous. A woman owns her vagina and her womb and only she decides whether t… Read More
2017-04-14 21:23
It may be the teacher in me that believes my purpose is reinforced by my reach.
Look, I like a decent honorarium just like the next person. But if my value is wrapped up in that I feel l… Read More
2017-04-11 21:21
I'm way behind on my National Poetry Month 30 in 30 poetry writing challenge. But here's 2 of 30 Read More
2017-04-11 03:15
pressed to my chest
by a bra made for movement; still Read More
2017-02-02 12:32
So look, even if you could buy and sell them, since they don't know you from the one place they daily confront people who look like you with their wine, rice, and cilantro at the register, y… Read More
2017-01-22 12:09
I have two things for sure in this world--faith and voice and I feel responsible for using them Read More
2017-01-22 04:37
Sexuality presents as attractiveness like “You’re cute, I’m attracted to your physical-ness.” And ultimately if biology and evolution is to be trusted, that translat… Read More
2017-01-19 08:13
Originally posted on darlene anita scott: How To Tell If You’re a Trophy Friend #1: You are always referred to by your attributes rather than your birth… Read More
2017-01-12 06:51
Women I know wear Special so heavy their backs break under it; discard it in you
and there you are feeling like you’re some kind of Robinhood to the rescue
knowing full well you are w… Read More
2016-10-29 12:52
Remember those posts: I am a miracle (that's my story and I'm sticking to it). and Didn't Yesterday say you couldn't yet you did? Mrs. Burke read them and thought they were worth sharing… Read More
2016-10-13 22:11
Originally posted on Under the Radar: WHEN MEN MOURN [draft 1] darlene anita scott They drag their words fraying the hems in the casual pimp they make… Read More
2016-09-26 22:15
So there we were living our happily ever after when our communication kept getting interrupted. The signal was poor. Eventually our conversations were curt and stilted—we probably sec… Read More
2016-09-24 01:25
He explains that he understands compliance intimately by sharing this story: as younger men he and friends were stopped and robbed by police. Their choice, he suggests, to face the wall, ha… Read More
2016-09-12 00:23
The training, racing, and creative process...is a triumph over the physical and psychic conditions just outside the parameters of control which would censor and stilt performance Read More
2016-09-09 22:29
Originally posted on Under the Radar: “You think your pain and your heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the world, but then you read. It was… Read More
2016-08-09 20:53
...common roles illustrate how Black women, and their sexuality, have often been synonymous with deviance. And reclaiming, repackaging, and/or discarding the roles has given women agency; a… Read More
2016-08-06 00:10
So we had a Title IX briefing. My ears were weary; my soul hurt; and my brain nearly exploded. But before it did I recorded these to… Read more "Notes From the Cowardly&nb&hell…Read More
2016-08-05 22:51
So what if the mission of those profiting from Black Death porn is to accomplish their stated mission: to remind The State (of mind) that Black and Brown lives should be recognized and treat… Read More
2016-07-19 15:30
Originally posted on Stacia L. Brown: http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x3zfgyi_prince-1999-1982_music 1. “Don’t worry. I only want you to have some fun.” It depends on the… Read More
2016-07-14 00:42
When we gonna start naming black women whose bodies have been abused by a system that fails to see beyond the melanin that covers them (or maybe sees them and responds in kind--another argum… Read More
2016-06-11 21:27
Rape culture is NOT gendered. We make a mistake of unwittingly participating in the victimization of those who are also, or are in danger of being, affected and moreover abused by it when w… Read More
2016-06-02 19:20
There are few, if any, choices a black body can make that do not speak its history, including the requisite traumas and proud triumphs over them. Under the gaze of the status quo, this body… Read More
2016-05-26 00:26
It is no easy demon to face who has dressed you and your entire context as “fine.” Read More
2016-05-25 02:50
Originally posted on Under the Radar: “Unless you know, you don’t know.” RIP Robin Williams _____________________________________________________ someday you will find this… Read More
2016-05-25 02:46
Originally posted on Under the Radar: …and maybe should stay there. **RAMBLE/RANT ALERT** I have gone through those break-ups that deflate you, suffered losses in which you… Read More
2016-05-23 19:58
I got some actual work done today and also started on these since they were all impatient and wouldn't wait Read More
2016-05-23 19:32
1. Browngirl, Brownstones – Paule Marshall 2. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn – Betty Smith 3. Segu – Maryse Conde 4. The Secret of Gumbo Grove –&hel&hell…Read More
2016-04-08 00:54
Reblogged on WordPress.com Source: If you have ever loved a black boyFiled under: poetry Read More
2016-04-08 00:50
Originally posted on Under the Radar: Dear You, I told myself that it was because of my father that I fell in… Read More
2016-04-08 00:48
Originally posted on Under the Radar: Vanity – n. excessive pride in one’s appearance, qualities, abilities, achievements; character or quality of being… Read More
2016-04-06 23:38
Trust me, I am not hiding anything in my art, my writing most specifically, any more than when it was layered in imagery. It is all there. Pause in the white space and you’ll see tha… Read More
2016-04-04 17:34
I am here to talk about silence. And the violence of it. How it traumatizes the body that practices it ... Continue reading Read More
2016-03-25 19:33
I’ll be on a panel called “Written By Ourselves: The Craft of Immobile Corporeality” on Friday, April 1 at 12 ... Continue reading Read More
2016-03-22 02:05
Why, yes, another poem! **curtsies** This is from a chapbook-on-hard-drive known as Invitations Not To Be Denied. I’ll show it ... Continue reading Read More
2016-03-22 01:56
Child-proofing is trumped by the grandkids’ challenge
to his height; this 4th of 8 lanky, voice on the verge of girl crush melody,
making himself up as he goes—
a danger no thre… Read More
2016-03-01 00:49
I have the opportunity to travel to Denver, NYC, L.A. and Paris in the next two (2!) months to present ... Continue reading Read More
2016-02-23 23:28
Originally posted on Under the Radar: I had a Chinese pen pal when I was in middle school. Her penmanship was… Read More
2016-01-27 12:00
None of those were missteps of the fragile male ego or drunkenness. They were not about how you lead him on or were rude or rash when you refused to comply to his demand for your attention… Read More
2016-01-03 20:08
fellowship/publication submissions: 2
fellowship/publication acceptances: 1
fellowship/publication rejections: 4 Read More
2015-12-30 01:43
Originally posted on Under the Radar: Within a single semester I receive doctors notes from quiet, bright Simone-with-the-dimples to excuse her absences… Read More
2015-12-29 01:04
We know that the rules of engagement; the strategies for survival that Baldwin and Johnson try to outline are flimsy at best Read More
2015-12-29 00:55
Can we give them our stories
without curling their backs into it, yellowed pages crisp and crumbling like
sepia snow into piles we sweep from in front of
our bookshelves?
Will we love them… Read More
2015-12-15 18:16
I enjoy sharing my work--writing, art, pedagogy but I do not like the public performance of it. (Artists be insular as a mug y'all; don't like you ain't know)! So I sometimes correct people… Read More
2015-12-13 18:39
Look, we all perform ourselves; the version of ourselves we choose to present to the world is a performance. Hers seemed a performance of the worst kind—poorly played (she ain’t… Read More
2015-12-03 04:31
Secret Shame: I don't feel like it Read More
2015-11-28 00:13
I just read that African-American buying 'power' is a myth. And I don't wanna be leading y'all astray or shaming working class folks just trying to catch a break on their kids' holiday shopp… Read More
2015-11-19 13:14
Come say hey! https://www.facebook.com/events/1642215682718621/Filed under: art, poetry, womanism Tagged: art, Portrait of the Artist as a Young Girl, rva, the ... Continue reading Read More
2015-11-18 22:13
I don't typically celebrate these kinds of anniversaries. But I do know that I have need to say that they existed more than that they died. Just like we exist and will cease to. I hope we… Read More
2006-06-07 11:16
fellowship/publication submissions: 1 fellowship/publication acceptances: 0 fellowship/publication rejections: 3 books: Home - Toni Morrison Secret Shame: I surrender all. Mantra ... Continu… Read More
2006-06-07 11:16
I don’t like titles. On me, they feel accusatory and restrictive; they never seem to fit or they’re itchy; they’re ... Continue reading Read More
2006-06-07 11:16
I’ve studied North African/Egyptian dance (also called belly dance) and West African dance since 2007. I’ve felt uncomfortable in my ... Continue reading Read More
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