I haven't got dressed today. Its been years since I've went a full day without getting dressed. I've had lots of coffee, eaten pancakes and played a guitar until the Flat tips of my fingers have become both flat and hard. For one day, I've dropped the tiller and closed my eyes. I've forgotten everything and lost nothing.
I'm not sure how much further I can go on with my normal life. Somehow, in the pursuit of greatness, I've created a world of pressure for myself. I'm paying an absolute fortune out for fibre lines, for staff and for the building of a vast wireless network. The government is pressuring me for results but not providing the help they said they would. While this is going on, I have to find enough daily income to pay for everything. My phone rings seven days a week and work emails come in 24 hours a day. My technology is cutting edge, but it is new and sometimes things go wrong for a few hours. When things go wrong, even for a short while, I get a sustained barrage of abuse in phone calls and emails. I cannot remember who I am anymore and I know something must give soon. Either I pack it in or I find a new way of working where I'm still generating income without working 80-100 hour weeks.
Anyway, today was brilliant and the sun rises tomorrow with all its opportunities. My dad always tells me that hard work and pressure is better than being stuck without being able to work. The void of emptiness is worse than anything else. He tells me stories of people with crippling illnesses and I do count myself thankful that I am fit and able. I have the physicality of someone much younger than me and I am thankful for it.
So enough complaining. Complaining is a sign that your mind isn't right. Complaining is a venting of Negativity. If there's a build up of negativity then you cannot prosper. Negativity begets negativity which begets more negativity. Positivity, positivity and more positivity - that is the answer.