I apologize to the few who are following this blog that I have not written in three weeks. I could give you a hundred excuses but that would eat up the time I have on the computer. There is something I have been meaning to get off my chest.....

My sister and I don't always see eye to eye but I would get killed for her. I don't think she is the best person in the world but that doesn't matter because she IS my sister. There are some things I feel she could change about herself so that she can be a better person NOT a different person. I love her but I hate being compared to her and she does too. We are very different.

So when it comes to efficiency and she was the preferred one, I felt horrible. I have a reputation of being stubborn, impatient and not a perfectionist but she is quite the opposite. I like taking an action now whereas she will spend more time on it. When people tell me that my writing is great but she would've done it better because of the grammer, I get infuriated.

Writing is the only thing I can do. My sister paints and is interested in being a doctor and frankly she has to work half as hard as me for a good grade. And now she writes and she writes beautifully and I love appreciating her. But I can't have myself compared to her.
Because of my past, I am insecure.

When I see her, I see a young and beautiful and talented girl who's going to be a star someday but I can't let her bring me down. There never is a good and bad sibling, they are always polar opposites.
She and I share the same DNA but have two different hearts.

I know some of you have probably mistaken me for being jealous but trust me I am nothing but proud of her. When she achieves something I am more proud of her than my parents could be. That I can say from the bottom of my heart.