I read this article which was about Skin Bleaching and its connection to self-hatred and having a Colonial Mentality. It was so powerful it really got me thinking White people who tan are the same as Black people who bleach. Beauty comes from what they see on others and they don't see the beauty in themselves as they are. It also got me thinking that Self-Hatred doesn't start and end at Skin Bleaching.
- Some African females prefer having weaves to hide their natural hair
- Some African females prefer being skinny than embracing their true curves
- Some African females prefer having a Western accent than having their natural African accent.
Self-Hatred comes in many forms and I think to some extent affects all of us. When I was much younger, I remember knowing this Coloured girl (half black, half white) who is Zimbabwean and never admitted it, she told people she was South African and at one point said that she was Brazilian. This seems to be quite common in a few Africans where they are not proud of their roots.
My accent tends to get most people confused about where I'm from and some think that I am American or Canadian and sometimes its easier to just say yes I am rather than get the third degree about where I'm from or if I have lions in my back yard. I do find that with a lot of Africans I know they hide their accents in an attempt not to be ridiculed or classified as lower class.
The self-hatred comes from our society, if we have nappy hair, too much curves and have a deep African accent then we are not accepted or embraced but we are ridiculed, labelled as being bad or ugly or not worthy. We want to fit in and be accepted and have great jobs but does that mean that we have to sacrifice the love we have for ourselves to please others?
Yellow Fever: TRAILER from Ng'endo Mukii on Vimeo.