Someone once said that to be a great writer you must have that courage to open up your life to people. Perhaps it could be true — you have to show up and relive through the moments (even the painful ones) so you can write something down.

Yet my life in the last few months has been quite the opposite. I wanted to keep everything to myself. I wanted to stay away from people who said nasty things behind my back. I wanted to build an empire of wall around me so I could be invisible from critical eyes.

At that time, I felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders. So I thought I needed that sense of dormancy.

I met someone at work and we got along pretty well. He was like a brother and a breather all rolled into one. The time we spent wherein we just sat together, ate together and shared stories are incomparable. The friendship was genuinely platonic which made work- life superb and balanced. Until people started talking about us. Hanging with him caused people to say malicious things that has brought me so much hurt and anxiety.

How can anyone find it in their hearts to say negative things to people they barely know? It’s disgusting how low people can go.

With all these issues going on, I have wrestled with God this time more than the previous 30 years of my life combined. I can’t believe this is really happening. Seeing people pull each other down instead of lifting each other up is heartbreaking and at the same time, overwhelming. Despite the so many “why” questions lingering on my mind, I am choosing to let things go. I am trusting that all things will work together for good. Only because God is good.

Can you imagine the transformation that will happen in this cruel world if we all decided to do a small act of kindness?

KINDNESS ALWAYS WINS. 

“Do your little bit of good where you are; it’s those little bits of good put together that overwhelm the world.”

Come, let’s make this world a better place.