So today I decided to make a run to the toilet, well not your usual kind of business but it was the vomiting kind. Ate a whole bunch of packet chips and felt disgustingly fat and disgusting. Pretty much sums up the Entire itinerary for my school holidays. It's been so unproductive that my procrastinating skills increases to a whole new level. It felt awful no doubt whilst fitting the entire hand into my mouth so that I could get my gag reflex to do the job. Works like charm every time. I don't know, guess I'm not ready to face the upcoming of adulthood, where people goes to work and try to be as professing as possible. I can't even get up every morning thinking "what a wonderful day it'll be!" 

Mom has been trying to persuade me into getting a part time job over the holidays but I'm always assuring her that I will, I'm confident to do something really productive like cleaning room perhaps? Or attempting to fold the mountain of clothes in my drawer since it's a mess or maybe hitting the gym once a week... Just kidding, I'm too lazy to make things work at this point, just wanna rest my eyes in a coffin shaped bed and call it quits. I hate my life and I hate every task God has tried to put me up with. No friends to hang out at this moment since they're all busy for vacation. Fuck this jealously, I could've gone to Thailand alone if it's not for the lack of savings. Talking about savings, it's pretty bad, yeah I've only accumulated $20 in my bank so far and I'm not even proud to say it. Always praying for a cheap alternative to earn quick bucks but I know life ain't work that way. 

So those who have been wondering what I am up to during the holidays, I'll tell ya. Nothing. N.o.t.h.i.n.g

I'm up to nothing and I'm gonna sleep today, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow till the days are used up and a new year arise. Oh wait Christmas, I'm so excited for Christmas cuz you know why? I will buy boozes and packs of cigarettes whilst listening to some dead punk music trying to attempt suicide but fail in the process and wake up the next morning getting yelled at by mom for all the messes I've made in my room.

Welcome to Jennifer's reality, now get off the train because my days are gonna be as Worse as this one.