In all honesty it feel’s like I’ve been in University for more than two month’s but apparently I’m hitting the two month mark now. University is such an experience, I am completely and utterly exhausted and drained to say the least. I have never been so tired in my life, and It’s the kind of tired that sleep is not fixing at this point. I’m also very broke, I know I need to get a job on campus but I’m just wondering what time I’m supposed to devote to a job- in-between procrastinating doing schoolwork and cheer practice I don’t have time. I like to keep myself busy but not too busy, I say this as I’m writing at 2am in my colleges lounge knowing damn well I have a 9:30 am lecture tomorrow morning.
I’ve come to so many self-realizations since I moved here and I’ll share a few in hopes that they will benefit others as much as they have benefited me.
1: Nothing is truly as bad as it seems. Of course there are situations in life where this does not apply and shit has truly hit the fan BUT trust me when I say that the boy/girl who is not texting you back or is commenting on other girls/boys pictures is not the end of the world. It really is not that deep. Don’t ever waste your time on people who won’t give you a second of theirs.
2: It’s okay to cry. If university has taught me anything It’s definitely taught me that sometimes you literally just NEED to cry. Something about crying has the ability to take a heavy weight off of your chest and make you feel so much better and sometime’s you just need to let go. My new saying is let go and let god. I saw it in a video recently and I’ve been repeating it to myself since.
3: It’s light. By this I mean don’t let things that are only going to bring Negative Energy into your heart or body bother you. What is the point of harnessing negative energy toward’s something that doesn’t feel any type of way towards you? You’re the only one being affected by your thought process, so essentially you’re only hurting yourself.
I know I haven’t written In awhile but I’ve been trying to keep myself from drowning in responsibilities and schoolwork. I’m writing this as I’m completely submerged underwater telling myself to just keep swimming. Gotta make the best out of each situation I guess. I really do love university, I love the atmosphere, the support, and the people. But SHIT is it ever different than high school. No matter what high school teacher’s do they can’t prepare you for an impossible amount of homework and zero sleep. At this point I feel like I have 24 hours to do 56 hour’s of homework. I find myself getting overwhelmed and crying a lot recently, if your’re from my home town you know that this is a crazy sentence cause I DON’T CRY, but I actually have the best support system here and my friends are truly the purest souls I have ever met. The best thing about university friendship’s is that people aren’t fake. They don’t have to be in your life if they don’t want to be and that is the most reassuring thing ever. I figure I should end this here because I have way too much work to do right now, until next time.