Muse : a source of inspiration; especially : a guiding genius (definition by Merriam-Webster)

If you notice, a lot of my posts have a certain line in it... "I have this friend..." There's usually a story about a friend that got me thinking and has inspired me to write the post...

I may be 'popular' with 'tonnes of friends', but I find that not many of them have an interesting character.

The 'friends' from most of the stories is actually just one friend... my muse! Since she's given me so much, I'm going to dedicate this whole post to her...

I've known her since 1997... that's pretty much 13 years of funny stories, weird relationships, drama, suspense, advise, discussions and a bit of sex... not with each other, mind you... but we do tell each other a lot...

You might think, doesn't the artist usually sleep with the muse? I'm pretty sure da Vinci was boinking Mona Lisa... but it's quite different between me and my muse...

And no, she's not ugly with a great personality. She could, by social norms, be considered 'hot'... she was after all a model for a short period of time, until she decided to pursue other interests...

It's just that I have always thought of her as my sister, and she thinks of me as her brother... we're the same age... we're both Scorpios... we like the same things... we pretty much have the same opinion about issues... heck... it was like spending time with my non-identical twin.

And you can't boink your sister, can you... I have actually sat in her room, on her bed, while she showed me the latest pieces of underwear she just bought, and not a single sexual thought comes to mind...

The fact that I'm not turned on by her at all does tick her off a bit... I'm the only guy that she's met who doesn't want her in 'that way'... and it's not that she wants me anyway... it's just something we've been laughing about since 1997...

Now back in the day, we used to go everywhere together... most people thought that we were 'an item'... once they've figured out that we're not (usually when they see me going out with a whole bunch of other girls), they immediately become 'my friend'... of course I'm talking about guys who are interested in her...

You see, they've figured out that my opinion of them means a lot to her... probably because she wouldn't stop talking about me... So there I was, being wined and dined like a prospective client who's about to award a multi-million dollar contract... Sometimes it made me feel like her friggin' pimp!!

What they failed to realize was, I didn't make the decisions for her... I gave her my input, and she decides... she's not some hopeless bimbo... she's intelligent, independent and knows how to take care of herself...

A lot of guys, who lack the self confidence to talk to her, do ask me about her... they keep on mentioning the fact that she's hot... well, I try not to dwell on looks with them... I try to maneuver the conversation to the fact that she's a great person... she's fun, she funny, carefree, but yet at the same time can be serious when the occasion calls for it... she'll listen to your problems... she has a way of saying "you know you're wrong, dumbass" in such a nice and non-condescending way that you do the right thing in your life after talking to her about it...

A long time ago, we promised each other... that if both of us aren't married after a certain age (I think it was 30... we were really young... 30 seemed so old at that time), that we would marry each other... of course other things which had to be done was I had to buy her a yellow BMW (have never figured out why) and we had to have sex on a flight of stairs (errr... the motive for this is even more perplexing than the BMW)...

We'll, I already got married (even though she tried her best to knock some sense into me at the time)... and so all I can do is wish her all the best and hope that she finds a guy who appreciates her for the amazing person that she is inside... I hope she finds a guy who will take care of her the way I would take care of her... I hope she finds a guy who will love her as his partner as much as I love her as my friend...