When you go to a depression mode, you will always think the unthinkable. Your Heart will palpitate for no apparent reasons, you will feel down at no cause, you think someone or somebody is talking behind your back, you will think the world is against you, that nobody believes and nobody cares for you anymore. I know there’s so much more than that and I can't mention it all. But believe me, you wouldn’t want to be there. You wouldn’t want to be on their shoes, you wouldn’t want to feel like what we feel, what they feel.
But amidst all of these storms in your life, you have to give yourself and your mind and your heart to the Lord above. He will help you realize that eventually this will all end, made you stronger and He will always protect you and help you ease the burden.
I come to realize upon talking to a friend last night that I am not made of stone as I projected myself to them. I carry a brave voice and a straight mind but deep inside I am crushing and my heart always feel the heavy load. And then I pray. I asked our Dear God to help ease the pain. That above all these, life will move on and so am I.
I just need to rely to God that whenever I feel down and weak, He will there to always carry me.
Thank you, Lord for giving me another day. That I wake up every day seeing my family giving me encouraging words, believing in me, helping me cope. And my kids saying I love you, giving me their tightest hug as wide as their small arms can offer and that their smile and happy heart makes me find the courage that I will make it through above all the chaos.