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That Felt Close Again

Tonight ice cream !!! Because 18 hours of sleep and being wiped out later...I deserve it. I'm trying to enjoy whatever this Gift has left. Yesterday was perfect until it wasn't in an instant. I started feeling better I'm my jeep when click... My vertebrae moved into a much better place. The pain and nerves involved from this neck pain steals all of my energy n a hearty beat truly...and it makes me weak and I'll for days. I'm thankful I have an insurance policy built in. Days like yesterday are humbling...again...can't soar anymore but I'm far from finished... Lot's of stumbling along the way and the less and less in life I can participate is more than anything simply killing me. Grace for me is a difficult dance but I'm not want to be gentle and graceful more rather a ravenous raging posses off bear...or a dove...like a heart beat up and down. He feels upon my heals once again...so I pick it up now soon to focus on escaping his grasp yet again..
I'm a better long distance runner than he because I'm determined and he is impatient and always feeding so gives up at hard work fast. I stay vigilant alert and it too is tiring trying to carry my broken skeleton along like it looks ok...what a difficult act...amazing any smiles left...it's some kind of crazy spiritual attack...and I think in the end it is a fight that turns more internal...yourself now looking back wondering if a being soon evolved to become? Why are we all so together lost...and who is your leader leading the way to blessed together prosperity we build. I pray for you...not necessarily to "God" but to something huge and all encompassing and I pray for you ! That's the power and importance of prayer. May I no longer be a selfish wretch and learn to be of better service to others and take not credit or possession of which I'm not deserving. That's just me today going through motions I'm blessed to experience. I'll take a bad day in 10 months and my goal was to survive until summer. Once again...I was somehow close. Once again...here I am. I'll take it... from rebirth 8-12-19 to summer 6-21-2019 all great days and yesterday a strong reminder of the delicate gift. I sure miss a lot of people. Good to make the best warm and cozy now for a long hard winter to come. Minus a bad day down, I refocus.



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