After years of doing both I Love and hate, I’ve come to realize I need more self care than I’ve ever thought before. Even if I’m happy, I need to sometimes stop and appreciate the things I’m getting, and especially the people I’m having around me.
When I was younger, my thinking was just be happy and everything will follow, and that you shouldn’t have any more else to think about. Just be happy. Yesterday, I was talking with a friend exchanging stories about our childhood, when I realized I have nothing memorable and fun to share. That was sad, honestly.
For years, I thought I was soooo happy and contented, but last night made me realize my life was actually boring. Yea, maybe I was too happy I forgot to keep those memories alive for me to treasure and look back to. So here’s what I’d do for myself today, and my list is quite challenging, I know.
1. Tell people I love that I love them.
It’s simple when you think about Telling people you love them. But honestly, it’s hard to do. Why? Maybe we’re just not used to telling and hearing it. It’s like when a person told you he loves you, you’ll feel awkward and worried at the same time like you wanna ask him “are you sick?” or “are you dying?” or I don’t know.
I’m one of those people who are not used to those words. When I say it, it’s coming from the deepest part of my heart I never open to just anyone anytime. I don’t even say it often to my family.
We’re all growing older and having lesser and lesser time to spend with other. So maybe make the people around around you feel loved and let yourself be loved.
2. Do house chores by myself.
Friends think I’m a home princess and they’re somehow right. Not that lazy-a*s princess but I let people do the House Chores and make myself comfortable not thinking about them working. Even when I’m at a friend’s house, I don’t even help out. Such a bitch, right?
3. Listen to more music.
I don’t know since when, but I noticed my I don’t open my Spotify as I frequently did before. I even shared mixtapes back then. Maybe because TV series, movies, and TED happened. But I need to find time for my first love, right?
Sometimes, doing things for other people is doing something for yourself as well. It’s nice being and feeling like an actual “adult” , kids, I’m telling you.
Lots of love,
Lazy May
